Sunday, December 26, 2010

Merry Christmas

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way….

 

Is Christmas! Well, it was a day after. Christmas indeed is a season to share how great LOVE is towards one another that Jesus was BORN on this earth 2 thousands years ago.

This year church theme was “Love is the REASON”. It really bring out the message of the great Lord shows us love.

And i wonder, do all people know including Malays know, what is the Christmas. Yes, it become habits that everyone shop for gifts, foods, clothes and etc. People tend to take it for granted as a season to celebrate it as a celebrations. It actually is a season where Jesus was born! Not any other meaning. We Christians, celebrate because Jesus!

And real fact, we should not wish each other Merry Christmas but as Blessed Christmas. Because we were blessed.

 

Years went on and on… And Aaron has been 21 years old. The small little kid we saw running around in church has been grown up. Is even same as me. Because we grow up together! We celebrate his birthday together at Lavacas, PJ. We do grab cheap chop and beef there. Save some pocket money. Have to try and save as much as I could for now.

Yeap! Great day has passed.. Is nearly year 2011. New resolutions have to set. Be prepared. Crossing fingers! ROx!

Monday, December 20, 2010

19 Dec 2010

A day start with tiredness because went home late around 1.30am. It was Sunday morning… Need to wake up as usual for it. Some more, I’m the coffee host with Aunt Connie. Torturing. Haha.. But is okay la… Come to think back how God bless me, I should bless it back to others with great food. ^.^

Come back to it, I woke up with uneasy stomach and feelings of wanting to burp and vomit again. I walk here and there see what I can do with it. I thought of try to get rid off all uncomfy on me. All end up oily stuff and not good things out. YUCKS! Imagine oil…. wow.. Part of amazing but part of dirtiness.

But I still make it to service. Rest a while before service start. Good sleep make good body.

Then just like usual, worship, words and …………………

To coffee host, I’m indeed very happy that I could serve others. Everyone said thank you to me.. I feel I’m bless.

After service, I called for my friends for next round as well, to confirm is my plan confirm to have lunch in Saisaki with them. But end up, it fails because could not accommodate everyone’s time. But things still goes on shopping with the same person. Pui Yee and Suet YIn. Hehe.. Meeting them 2 days really feel enjoying my outing with friends.

Upon reaching to Pavilion after drive Suet Yin, we called Pui Yee where she about. But we choose to go to Starbuck to enjoy a cup of coffee while waiting for her. WOw..!! I got my 5 stamps. Hehe.. I will get my free planner soon! Which is very nice. Then after Pui Yee is done with her shop, we went on to Wong Kok Cafe for lunch. I just had sandwiches and few Wanton as my Brunch. Quite feeling.. And I did order a big free cup of birthday drinks to share. Seeing Suet Yin not ordering drinks, i decided so to let her have the whole cup of drinks.

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Haha… We force her to drink finish it. :P 

Well, she did a very good job of finish it with 3 small glass and I have taken half of a small glass. :)

Then we went back to Tangs where Pui Yee bought her gifts for gift exchange in office. She wanted to wrap the gift. But we end up do some silly stuff first.

DSC01969Cute-nya!! Haha…

 

Pui Yee head home after her gift wrapping. But me and Suet Yin continues to shop. Walk in Pavilion and went to Uniqlo just to survey things I can buy. But end up, empty handed back. hehe…

And I did receive my 3rd present from my sister. Thank you for such wonderful gifts.

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Big day on 18 Dec 2010

It actually start with a good Saturday morning. Woke up then call my friends to see are they free to teman me to do shopping. Yes, is their answer. So I just quickly get ready my self and wait for Pui Yee to fetch me. It was just out of sudden call, everyone is interested in shop. ^.^ Glad it happens. Hehe..

I said this to Edmund : “If I could not ask anyone, I will call you.” But too bad and sorry.

It was a good day to shop as Christmas is near and it was my birthday. We jalan-jalan Fahrenheit 88, then we head on to Pavilion. A place I will never miss when I should go shopping. Though the place is considering High Class but I still can shop there. Not really expensive la.. I bought 2 shirts, some lingerie and a bag. Hehe.. Thanks for Cottons On and Pull N Bear, my favorite shop. Not bad for first day shop. It seems so enough for me.

We had our so called break-fast @ Brunch in Ichiban Boshi. The food taste yucky for me because it makes me not feeling well the whole night.

Then we went home..

At night, dinner is with Wendy’s group. I was so surprised that I receive the second gift from them which carried out with Wendy. It was a perfume with Love Shape.

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I’m so happy to receive it!! It was from Wendy, May Ping, Kit Yeng and Alwyn. =>

 

We went to Damansara, place near Curve and Royale Bintang. The venue called Craft Brews.

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Really thought the name was awesome but food was not good. Maybe because of the morning food made me feel too much air in my body. End up, I couldn’t finish the big portion by myself. It was a sigh, and wasted my food after I pray. No choice but to leave it.

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Then we planned for next place. Think and think… Lotsa places, eg : Zouk, Luna Bar, Palate Pallete, Jalan Changkat and etc. But lastly we choose Changkat. Head on there, sit on, ordered Hoegaarden.

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Ended up, I couldn’t finish it as well. And I vomited due to too much of excessive air in me…. All the food was out of my stomach.. It feels yucky that I actually vomited infront of Seng Wan which he is at the hand basin. Haha.. He thought I’m drunk. Everyone thought so, but i know my conditions more. ^.^

It feels much better after vomit. Then everyone walk back to cars and end up the journey of my first day in Quarter of my life.

But sickness still come. Continues on tomorrow.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

last day of 24 years

here is the first and new day for me as I begin to enter age of 25.

Glad that I could live till this age. Thank U God for creating my existance, my mum n dad for bringing me to this world, my sisters who walk with me in my life time, friends that accompany me always, people who encourage me, seeing me grow, laugh with me, cry with me, share life with me n etc…

THANK YOU so much…..

LOVE YOU GUYS!!

 

Just let me talk of my last day of 24th.

I got a big gift from God. I had a neck pain. My neck is stiff. Why would it happen? But is ok.. Life still goes on. hehe…

It was a working day for me. As usual, 9am+ reach work place, and i went off early around 4pm+, nearly 5pm. Reach home, getting ready to dinner with Edmund. Preparing my self took quite long because I did make up. It was quite syok to see how my look change when putting fake face. But I do like the outcome. Is just once in a while. Can’t do it always. =)

Then head on to dinner in Sunway Giza Mall, Fullhouse. Yeap! A nice place i been. Met with few celebrity there, fans crowded, and dance event is there. Jam with lots of people. All these done with dinner, head on to next station, Starbuck in Mont Kiara. A quite place but lots of people today. Reaching there early, wait and chat n wait.. Finally at 11.55pm, my cake came out. A cake from Baskin Robin. It melted. Not in a good shape, but still, it melted a simple girl heart. Though he fail in presenting it, but i still like the idea of it. A heart of preparing something. “Hehe… I know what’s his plan”. But I don’t want to spoilt his plan.. Move on.

He presented a gift to me. A box. We chatted before we leave. it was 12.51am. If I’m not mistaken, it was the time, I’m out from mother’s womb. Great! Long way home by going in city. Reaching home, open up the box, it is a gift of necklace and earring. Simple gift, beautiful box. I guess it is quite expensive.

Thank U!

If u know me well, I hardly wear jewelries or accessories. But thanks for the heart. =)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Wishlist cum Resolutions

woot~~

Christmas is near just few days ahead. But geezz… I haven’t do my shopping yet.

I can’t even get new clothes for my Birthday. But is ok… I still got new some clothes to wear. ^.^

Come to Christmas gift, is really headache of trying to get things for others.

But i do have my own lists of what I should be getting for own self. Hehe…

THE LIST :-

 

a) Slippers – Brand Adidas? www.adidas.com.my

                    Birkenstock? http://www.birkenstock.com.my/products/birkenstock?page=1

                    or cheap but nice?

b) Clothes of course….

c) Bag – A nice bag pack that suits me. Brand Platform 5?

d) Shoes – Nike? Adidas? http://www.streething.com/news/407

e) Macbook

f) Books of different languages

g) Watch – Nooka? Fossil?

h) Diver set – Wetsuit, snorkel, mask, etc

 

 

2011 Resolutions :-

 

a) Good job next year

b) Up to Mount KK

c) Travel

d) Dive at least for once

e) Enjoyzz life….

 

Kinda Greedy!!!

Monday, December 6, 2010

GB PD Trip

it was indeed a joy to catch up with some girls during GB Camp. Well, I love the beach. God’s creations is so awesome, wonderful and is praise worthy. Really Indescribable.

It just make me think back to go dive under the sea. So great…

Love the water and sky. It gave me a cool feeling but too bad, I didn’t play in the water, because i’m worried of the dirtiness of the water. But I’m still satisfy, going out with Wah-wah, and Sook Kuan, my 2 ex AJK Board in Sri Petaling school. Their heart is still here in GB. Glad for such a children of God.

 

And the most miracle and small tiny things happen in my life was seeing all the girls coming back to GB, as like I been before. It was sweet memories of GB time….

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Cold

Weather is getting cold. Must learn how to take care of myself.
Love the song by Nelly - Just a dream.
Yea... Everything is just a dream.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Shook Kwan Wedding

Today was also my sort of best friend wedding.

Seeing her really make me happy. Good relationship, good career and good husband she have now. Is such an envy and jealousy moment, but I do know, I should not be, because is her life and her faith with her husband is there. Feeling is a bit unexplainable. Dunno how to describe. But I’m still happy with what she got. Is so hard to let go of a friend who really finds her true love. >.<

Surely gonna miss her…

I do know how does her parents feels. It feels awkward at a time, and it does feel empty in another space of time.

Well… Is good to see that. It means she is really loved by someone. :)

Happy Wedding…  28/11/2010

Flies

As time pass by,

I still got 19 days to my birthday,

26 days to Christmas,

29 days to his birthday,

and 32 days to New Year.

Time flies… All my dear dream of having gadget that I needed, has been complete. I got those in hands, yet, I need to survive for another 2 years to been through and settle everything because of Iphone. But I am happy with what I got. May is a blessing or maybe I just try my luck.

Haven’t thought of a birthday wish for this year, as last year, Wish completing soon, and it goes well. This year aim for better ones?? Not sure though. Maybe something easier to fulfill just because I’m getting old? :D

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Relieve from 2010 Concert

The moment of relieve have come…

But it might be repeating next year.

The Children’s Concert went on well. It was a succeed event Plus day. But actually a busy day.

It starts with morning Church GB. Then I went off earlier to get back my house to do hair treatment. It took me at least an hour to finish. I needed to take good care of my hair more.. >.<

Then head to Central Market, The Annexe  Gallery. It was PIPIT ANNIVERSARY, WONDERFUL MARKET 5.

Saw alot of differrent things being sell… Wanted to get and do such things. But too bad… I am too lazy for it. Haha…

After that, I have to rush back to Kindie for concert. But Praise God, I can make  it in time and it was a wonderful concert. I finally dedicate my whole year time in leading the children who have been so naughty to good character. They are willing to listen to every single words now. But I can’t promise what will happen when they grow up.

The most wondering thoughts in my mind is “Will they ever remember who I am, when they already grown up?”

God is Good.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

long long time… lots to say,

from Fraser’s…

from Church…

from Work…

Life ^.^

 

But i do know that these things won’t stop. It will keep on moving.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Life changes

again… there are good n bad.. things never end in life.

I decided to resign from Aunt Christine place because I struggle much starting from this year. She seems changed to another person whom I don’t and can’t communicate. It is hard for me to do things….. Sometimes, I felt frusted. I felt so ill when seeing her deciding what she wants when she said earlier on. It was total opposite.

Is sorts of choking to me.

And I made up my mind to take the path which I want to take, by taking a course. Might be hard for me taking a tour guide course, because I didn’t have a good knowledge in speaking and even communicating. Well… Have to try. Never try never know.

Praise God that 2 of my prayer works immediately. Friends call me out and him calling.

Sad things does happen to fill up better ones. Y would it be? Feel more powerful? Conquering? or ???? Not sure…

But of course I wish and want for good thing to happen. It does make my eyes swollen. Painful isn’t it? Still have to work early tomorrow yet, still want to torture my self not to sleep but to complete task. Sigh…

 

What a life again.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Public Phone

it seems so odd today that I used public phone to call my mum.

Is because i have forgotten to took my phone home. It was so lame..

Never thought of it, until the moment I reach LRT to get home. Then, without thinking too much, just blast my Ipod and just take LRT home. Plan later.

Hopefully mum wont be home early. But too bad, she is at home early cause she is attending her course for this week, so she will be reaching home early.

If she is not home early, it means I still can wait her in the car which she park in LRT.

Everything seems moody to me, when I reach car park not seeing my mum’s car there and not knowing she is home early.

Plan A comes out, search for public phone and call her.

Plan B, take LRT to Ampang station then take bus home. It cost RM1 but i have to wait in crowds and bag is heavy (carrying laptop).

Trying to go for Plan B because i knew that Cahaya Station don’t have public phone exist. But God knows, He place a public phone there. And it was old booth but new phone. Wow… So happy seeing it. I spotted it when a girl stand there for so long, and I ‘kepoh’ to walk near and look at it. There is a phone and good conditions even clean! Yeah!! I like it..

Called my mum and told her I need her to fetch me.

Praise the Lord that everything happen for reasons. And It means I still can survive without phone geh…..

No worries.. ^.^

Hehee…..

Thursday, October 21, 2010

really fed up with such attitude. Non stop having same thing… sigh…

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Maddy

lots of things had happen.

my temper is not getting good. I get frust easily…

Eg: a) My mum couldn’t come and pick me up on timing when I reach lrt and I have to wait for 5 more minutes whereby I had inform her earlier on to get her prepared.

b) My room light were good before I went out, and it got burst after when I’m back. It was my sis in my room playing with my comp dat time.

c) My lil sis using my laptop to play games online in FB. Which I couldn’t really tahan of she kept on asking me this… Which this is my personal comp. and I bought it myself. I wonder, if it get collapsed, who is gonna pay for me? Not my mum.. cause she is not involve in. But me? No way!!

d) After my lamp were spoilt, mum hired ppl to come and fixed it. That stupid fella dunno is a room or wat, trying to screw the light out and make my whole room dirty. Without asking for newspaper to cover all the dirt of whatsoever. Which make me clean up my room in the night after so tired whole day outing for GB, rushing for friends wedding. I wonder, did God hear me say in heart, that I want to change my bed sheet. =.=”

But I’m glad seeing Sarah’s wedding held on this day 16 oct. There was a story behind it. They were actually met 6 years before on this day. And A day before they met, Sarah pray for a guy who can take care of her. And it does happen. And she pray for someone like King David, the next day, a guy named David came. Haha…. Such a good God.

I wonder where is mine. :P Haha…

Wanting God to calm my heart so much. I know what I been thru and I need self control on me myself.

Tired……. ZZZzzzZZZzzz…………..

Monday, October 11, 2010

Cycle and dinner

The next day on Sunday, after a tired rest on saturday, once finish service, rushed back home. Going to cycle with friends in Putrajaya Botani Garden. A nice place to cycle cause is mainly a plain land with lake, trees and nice scenery. The road is quite flat. Not much exciting as in SA, Botanic Garden. There are so much different in there.

SA is more big, more to jungle, plantation was different. The feel is there to cycle. Even the road made challenges to for me to strive on continue to cycle. But in Putrajaya, except nice scenery, I don’t thing anything could match them. The most is the bike are still very new. Small area, makes not much people in there (Maybe).

Overall, cycle there just took me less than an hour to finish a round. :P poor Wee Lip saying, it was a nice place. But i do know, different people, different feeling. So I didn’t let him know that.

After cycle, as usual, going for makan and minum. Reach home at 6.30pm. Getting ready for going out dinner with sisters and church members to celebrate sheryn, sis birthday. This is the most happy celebration she got. I guess.. It really made her cheer up and wore dress. :) Great cuisine environment for all. Even dressing was so perfectly match.. Hahaa…. thanks to pastor for suggesting.

May God bless this wonderful sister of mine. Am glad to have u as a part of my life. =D Happy Birthday!

First Training in MAPs

Wow… so busy and tired on saturday.

Hehe…

was my first time to join in MAPs training. it was held in Shah Alam. So worried that I could not even get a transport over there. But by God grace, He let me met Jason Low, who stay in Puncak Jalil. So convenient for me and him. :)

And I got to wake up early in the morning just to catch trains and not to be late. I’m still on time. ^^

All the way there, chit chat with him, he looks cool to me. His attitude is more like very serious person. But things changed once reach SA. He told me what I should be doing in MAPs. But mostly, it was Angel to teach me all the stuff. Couldn’t imagine she is younger than me. Then I met Sue coming together with the group. Couldn’t imagine also, they were divers. Haha… A good world Im living in, i guess.

Things I learned in Broga and some stuff teach by Heng Kai is useful to me. As this is the first timer for me, and first time in this year for Angel, she did try me out in some knot tying. And I did managed to do it. :P Sort of self praise here. But thanks to her, I learn bout Abselling, Flying Fox to be stopper and most be a belay.

The group we handle are mostly secondary school youth. Not kids. Is more good and better, because they tend to learn fast.

I do love serving God. But it really making me tired and got sun burn. It was extremely hot and i still could feel the heatness till at night time.

The group settle and finish around 3.30pm. After they went home, we packed up. Justin treated us Ice Cream. But before we could eat it, we wanted to finish our wall climbing just to syok our self up. Hehe….

Leaving SA around 5, Angel fetch me to Putra Lrt, I took train home. It was a long journey. It took me 2 hours to reach home. Through out the journey, really God bless me, that I have a seat to be seated on. I felt a sleep. Tiring day.. Till i reach home, it was 7.

Then I have to bath, and settle all my stuff, and then go up to Uptown to take sis cupcake which I made reservation a week before for her birthday.

Night ends at 12 after a short yum cha with friends regard of another activity up that was cycling.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Life

Day comes early.

Noon comes early.

Even rain does rain everywhere..

All about life. Living with a happy heart ;)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Luke 17:1-4

today sermon really strike me..

Is about complacency, forgiveness, peace, and most important is love

Luke 17:1-4

Things that cause people to sin are bound to come but woe to that person through whom they come. It would be better for him to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around his neck than for him to cause one of these little ones to sin. So watch yourselves.

“If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. If he sins against you seven times in a day, and even seven times comes back to you and says, ‘I repent,’ forgive him.”

 

This is a powerful bible that I recover today. It took impact in my life today. As what struggle in my heart today really reflect on today message. I know the Holy Spirit is watching over me. Trying to let me know, what I been through is what God says “He won’t put me into that situation when I can’t even bear it.” Is true. I can bear it, but the matter of handling it, I’m still confused on how to do it.

Is a matter of how to forgive a person that really hurts me into my heart of the words he used to attack my life and to my friends. Is so much of self dignity. It really hurts me when all of it doesn’t really bring out who am i. instead is all negatives and being so rude to a woman or me. Even respecting my friends is so hard as he said, he hate all my friends.

Out of anger words? Unsatisfying heart? Not sure. What I know is I really hope to forgive him as what God has told me too…

I just want to love him as my brother. and not more out of it for this moment till everything has been clear off and make known well.. I don’t hope much.

Hurts and pain make nothing good at it. It only let Satan comes in to influence and even to attack me. I wanna be like Him so much…… But I knew I can’t be complete without Him.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Fruits of the Spirit

Galations 5:22-23

 

Love is Christlike reaction to people malice.

Joy is the Christlike reaction to depressing circumstances.

Peace is the Christlike reaction to troubles, threats and invitations to anxiety.

Patience is the Christlike reaction to all that is maddening.

Kindness is the Christlike reaction to bad people and bad behavior

Goodness is the Christlike reaction to lies and fury.

Self-control is the Christlike reaction to every situation that goads you to lose your cool and hit out.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

9 wong yeh

today is the first day where ‘9 wong yeh’ celebration held.

It starts with a jam down my house.

Then, noises from the temple. I thought it was suppose to praise God with their hymns.. But who knows, is more like a karaoke singing competition… Really not making any sense… They just shout and sing, making noise, think it is popular… But they don’t realise all these are not needed in God’s eyes…

Noise polution is coming up so much… hearing it make my ears so pain…

Will report police if it is too over…

Friday, September 24, 2010

outing soon

back here… Mooncake festive was over. Now, proceed on with Kindie Outing. Yeap! here it goes…

Sleepy head again for past few days. Is a week after broga. Sigh….. What to do le… Cham…

Right here, hoping, tomorrow will be a good day. Cheers~~

Thursday, September 23, 2010

mooncake celebration

everyone were invited to Kit Yeng’s house for dinner. It was cooked by her mum. Initially, her mum asked us to go there to avoid house being empty as children gets older, they would go out of the house.

It was a nice dinner with her aunt came in to entertain us with jokes and laughter. The food was good. It is more like CNY feeling where family gathering. I do like this kind of situation where, friends come to have a home cooked dinner. It likes old man friends knowing for long. I really appreciate it… Loving it.

Then after dinner, we played monopoly game.

After few rounds of it, aunt came with food served us. Fruits, mooncakes, and etc… Then she opened the red wine which Wee Lip brought. It was shared with everyone. After done with red wine.. Aunt took out her coffee milk alcohol. She was first to share with me. Then another bottle has finish. Then again she took out another bottle of coffee alcohol which was Uncle bought for Aunt. Opened it, drink half way, talk nonsense….

Everyone had a good time of chat, nonsense, and etc….

And I am still sleepy cause lack of sleep for so many days. I felt really tired. but i do really enjoy it. XD

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

(1)

y would a man still love me when he cursed me so deep and harsh…

how much he does know of love?

how much he really knows how to show his feeling?

how much he know what he wants and needs?

what is the goodness he say till so bad bout me?

to let the whole world know i’m worthless???

then ?? what he really get? I’m ain’t enemy….. nor hatred by people.

 

i really confused.

I been cursed or talking bad non-stop from his blog yet, he still wrote “missing u” in msn.

he want to return twice fold for what i did.. (which according to him, im a bitch, slut, or whore. xxx with people and etc..)

well… I dont really mind if he would do it. Cause i knew he won’t. Knowing him too well…

Just wonder… why would he said me such a way…. sigh….

18-19 September Broga Camp

Im back to Broga again…

This time is for 4th KL BB and GB in the school. It was actually organize for the school group in SMKBBSP. But it when out to be failure plan. No one could expect the girls and boys all couldn’t make it. I really wonder why. It seems what we try to grasp on to it, but they don’t really realise how hard are we without pay but still serving for God that is most High.

Just whining.. Aren’t we do it good to them? Or being not knowing their heart well…. Sigh…. Whatever it is, we still thankful that God has enable us to have such activities…

Everything doing well and fine.. Things here had changed.

Fun – more new games. Eg: Water course, balancing, beach volleyball, mind games more… Still remaining exciting was the Leap of Faith, Low Ropes, and Flying fox. High ropes trees had been cut down. Poor tree having too old ages.

Food – the most important of all. It has changed to an Indian mamak stall to cook. Sigh… tau la.. Mamak wo.. How nice could it be? Really.. Cant even compare to Jia Xiang, chinese food. According to news, change cook is because there will be malay people around here. My view is, if there is Malay, just send it over to Mamak stall and cook lo.. what’s so important of priority to them since they are not here always. Is chinese always….. zZZzzzzZZzz..

Well, boys and girls here enjoy what they do. Is a real good grace seeing them such way. But still is not what I have expected. Some in vulgar words. Some in prank jokes.. sigh again…..

Here will wait for another day hill climb.. :)

 

is kinda tiring day after climbing but is worth more.. Is another experience for me which i love it… :)

Monday, September 13, 2010

such impolite….

no manners at all.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

same old shit

BLOCK BLOCK BLOCK!!!

WHAT ALSO YOU WANNA BLOCK!!!

WHAT ABOUT THOSE MOTHER FUCKERS???!!!

THOSE BLOODY IDIOT YOU DON’T BLOCK!

SO YOU CAN HAVE SEX WHEN YOU NEED IT ISSIT!!!!

I REALLY BEH TAHAN YOU ALREADY!!

I WANT TO BE A SIMPLE FRIEND WITH YOU BUT GOT IGNORE LIKE 932509732957092375 TIMES!

I TELL YOU! IS A SIN FOR YOU TO IGNORE ME!!!

I'M GOING CRAZY!!! GOING NUTS!!!  

 

this is what u been know how to do… such a failure. always counter attack. im getting used… u want me to be friends with u? evaluate urself, how u treat me each and everytime. that the reason, im avoid. even so called leave you alone to realise urself whats wrong. but u dont even get it. so it means, u did not try to change or even evaluate yourself. what for be friends in such way? it will get back to the same old square like it used to be…. argue and even hate to see and talk each other more.

that’s the reason i ignore u. call me whore or slut wont make any good difference.. it just make worse. because u dunno how to respect someone. u r such an IDIOT who never wanting to see the world by your own!!

Friday, September 10, 2010

Transformer 3

Wow… Incredible news…

Is out!!! Not yet la.. Read here,

“So fans, Dreamworks and Paramount have officially announced that Transformers 3 will be transforming your summer entertainment July 1, 2011”

Great?? Yeah!!

trip to cruise..

it was a tiring journey back and flow using only a day. but all the teachers enjoyed the facilities and having fun on board. Having such an experience is good. Going with different really mean alot. Especially those who are older and the have different opinion to share out to talk. We really had non stop fun. Looking back, I am really happy working with this bunch of teachers, Connie, Chia, Aw, Agnes, Yee, Jennifer and even aunty Wong the helper.

Day 1

Tiring in morning, cause woke up around 5 to prepare to trip. Slept on bus all the way to Penang. Reach Penang around 1.30pm. First place to visit is Dynapharm. A place introduce to buy healthy product. A company produce pharmacy and hospital medicine. Wonder why he brought us there. But no one complains. :P

Then we head to food court in Island to have tea time @ lunch time. haha…

After that we will on board at 7pm.

Visiting all the places in cruise. And we sees lots of things in there.

Day 2

woke up early in morning also to have enough time to enjoy breakfast. It was real comfort on the cruise bed. We packed stuff to get ready to get back to land around 8am.

When on land, we head to Muzium Peranakan, Penang Baba dan Nyonya house. Didn’t went in because mostly our teachers don’t want to. Then went to place where everyone could buy some snack food and stuff to cook at home. But we went to opposite of the shop, where chocolate factory is there. Hehe… Bought some chocolate.Next to Kek Lok Si is next station. At there, we have to walked up cause bus could not go up the hill. We been walking the long stairs. There is a pond of turtle whereby mostly people feed them. What a lucky turtle. I bought Mahjong set, Name on rice necklace, and hat. Bargain price at there really works. Had a great bow of Asam Laksa there too, which only cost RM3. Cheap and affordable!

Then we have to head back to KL. Rushing back but also reach around 7pm. Haha…

 

Conclusion – Nice trip…!!!

Monday, September 6, 2010

My new Gadget Tx-5

woophs…!!!

I do remember i wrote this last year November, that was my wish list!!!!

 

1) A Digital Camera

Had been eye on Sony newest camera that is TX-1. Price is RM 1499.

For more info, check it in www.sonystyle.com.my

Of course colour that im choosing is not pink.  :P  Just newly bought my Tx-5, water proof camera, today!!! I’m freaking happy bout it. Woohoo…!!!! XD

2) A Handphone

i been using my hp for the past 4-5years? Quite a good memorable hp which comes from my friend. A friend that helps a lot. The model is Nokia 3120. Wow.. Old right? Pathetic to me cause i don't plan to buy new one in past. But now, i wanna change to a new hp with camera, coloured, good features. Eg: Iphone. Haha... So big dream when after so many years. But besides Ipone, others still can. Wanting to get Nokia Classic 6700 with cheap and good features. But most important is handy. I need 2 hp....!!!!

3)  A Watch

Fossil? Swatch? Or etc?? I don't mind. As long as it suits me. Nooka in year end.

4) A Holiday

Till the year end, is always days where I'm really free. Hoping to find a place which I can relax. Going alone is a good idea, but going with a friend as a companion is much more better.   Completed, by when out to Cherating, Kuantan with Kit Yeng, Wei Yee, Wen Xi, Alwyn and etc friends during July.

5) A Jeans

Levi’s?

6) A Sweater

From Topshop or Pull N Bear?

Hehe... Girls favourites. Got blessing from friend. Giordano brand. I’m still happy bout it though is not brand new.

7) A Car

Last but not least, I know I won't get it. Until a day where God can really see me through in it. But I'm happy with what i have now that is transport free driving around with mum's car, taking public transport if i have to.

 

Haha… At least my wish is half completed. And my most important aim in this year, i got on June. That is scuba license. Hehe….

Is all by God grace!!!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

holiday mood

wow… holiday begin…

is just a week but is worth much more than enough after 2 months of working without a day rest from public holiday. Is kinda stressful working with children. And sometimes is fun when they do listen to you.

Oh well… this week is a rest week but have to do exam evaluation paper. Sigh.. Stress also la…

 

But I’m happy that I can go to cruise in Penang with a bunch of teacher. Is really a God blessing that made all of us to have enough cabins, sufficient money for the trip. Thanks to Aunt Connie for her to work so hard to get our benefits. And to God who is so great enough to let us to have an enjoyable trip.

 

After cruise it is Raya on the following 2 days. No place to go… Boring gua.. But I will be sure to enjoy Emptiness of Kuala Lumpur. ^.^

 

God Bless.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

lots to write…

lots to say..

 

but most of all happy is the most important thing that happen. :)

and happie birthday to those whose birthday on August and September. Too much of you to be mention.

May God bless you all.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Untitled

had a great weekday. trying to go beyond what i didn’t do for long. trying to stay late every night until 2am or 3am just to enjoy with my darling, Kit Yeng. It was great with her. To know her more and more, though I known her for long. Every thing seems in a fairy land.

and i realize… the lovebirds trying to do something to me again. ARGH!!

Every time when im single, it sure comes back. But i will try to avoid it cause I knew it is Satan way to try to tempt me in. And to make me feel lost and etc… I will be more careful by going out with my darling if bees are around. ^^

Touching in heart

BACK TO FEW DAYS AGO….

Something that touch my heart every in the morning before i put down my stuff in my cupboard.

My children, Yap Li Xuan, she and others were trying to distribute chocolate to friends. And I did ask “why don’t you share it with your classmate first?”

They replied “We did. We did by putting it on the chair which all the chair was neatly under the table by surprise.”

They actions cause me to smile sweetly. And without realize, they asked me to pull out my chair also. I was so touch in my heart that being their class teacher, and always be fierce and angry towards them, they still do something that can make me smile.

It does gave a big meaning to me. Chocolate and surprise, em….. it was a valentine day with my children. ^.^

 

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Sunday, August 22, 2010

Church decisions

is been 1 week already.

no blog means lifestyle boring and normal. haha…

so far so good. had AGM in church regarding buying the land plot next to church.  RM100 per square feet. someone said quite affordable. yes it is. If each once contribute a part. we could at least buy the land with easy price. But is not expensive. cause total price only cost RM500k. Worth..

some people do not support of buying, is because the have something on regarding church inner problem. But, majority thinks is a good chance of getting it. Someone shared is a part of God’s will of getting it after so many years. But we can’t be so sure of it.

 

N the answer is buying! At least, is ours next time. :)

Monday, August 16, 2010

Cherating (14/8/2010)

i had an enjoyable trip. overall, this trip there is sadness, loneliness, happiness, release stress and etc feeling.

I do really felt this trip make me to have my bonds with my gfs. It was a good one. :)

though is not much time to enjoy our facilities there, but is more than enough to love that place, The Legend.

And most of all, it was my first time been to a sea view McD Fast food. Yummy.. Nice food + nice place. Is called Incredible!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

nooka

nooka.com has become one of my fav spot

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Iphone 4

 

Iphone 4 is out… I’m hunger for it again. The price is much more expensive now…

Factory Unlocked iPhone 4 (32GB) - MYR RM4,399.00 

Factory Unlocked iPhone 4 (16GB) - MYR RM3,899.00  

 

Sob sob….

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

long time

been sick for a day on saturday.

felt numb, no energy on sunday.

monday back to work. wonder y so sleepy.

maybe haven’t gain back my energy from vomited and diarrhea on saturday.

tuesday, days went normal. felt back my energy. but fed up with kids in school.

don't care is the best way for now.

Friday, July 23, 2010

God has called me to become a steward of His creation.

And I’m so bless with what has and will be return.

Happiness and joy is the main purpose, that kept me on.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Flywheel

a part in the car. But it ended up as a movie. A movie that make me cried for few  scene. Em… what a success Sherwood Company. It really comes to our deep sense of how being a human and relying on God alone. He is great!!!

Success Enrol

Praise God that everything runs well in the 4th KL Enrolment. It was really a great day that God has promised to make His word shine. The worship, the sermon, and even the singer, makes a very much different in this service today. It is a really proud day.

Even the sales of our marshmallow chocolate dip and photo frame by Chaplain Shooky, finish up so fast. It does attract everyone. Though is expensive Rm1 per one. But am glad that God does miracles.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

got my scuba official license…

thought of going to sea side and dive myself forever in it.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Fairness

How Unfair it is when you:

- can do things which i can’t.

- could buy stuff that you want, without my part.

- can lose your temper on me but I don’t.

- critic on my past.

- want me to care, pamper, and soft towards you the way you want it to be, but i can’t get.

- used your iphone

- breaking your promise again and again n not even telling me or asking me

- having pictures with someone without getting much jealous

- treating me good as what you said

- said things. it seems so REAL where you could avoid to happen.

 

* How disappointed when it happen again and again.

Come and think of, how love works? By materialistic? complaining? judging? comparing? jealousy? or hatred?

It is all from Satanic voice as love….

 

 

But I do know how FAIR I got from my Father in Heaven.

He will do all things surely greater, love me indescribable, won’t let me down, won’t break promise, sent His only son and etc.

He promise me that He will store up my treasure in Heaven. =)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

free day

After the wedding, I had a free day…. yeah!!!

It was because I’m all alone at home. Don’t what to eat, so convenient, I packed mcD again. :P

Then reached house boring, on a Cd to watch. Then after meal, seems so free and house was in a dirty mess, I cleaned up the house by doing house chores. Sweep, mop, clean toilet, etc.

Time does flies.

Is time to dinner again. Lazy for going out. Had a thought of cooking. Looking in the fridge, search a while, I do figure out that I can cook fried rice plus chicken wings. Lol.. I did a good fried rice and nice fried chicken. It was good meal.

No longer, time to sleep is around. Shut down my eyes around 11pm.

and got waken by mum’s calling to the needs of fetching her home from Loke Yew. Being a good girl, I did fetch. =)

 

* Uncle Joe has been admitted to hospital for his heart operation. Thank the Lord that he had a fast recovery. Really painful to see Aunt Connie to worried and to cry for him. The heart of the wife is really there to love their spouse is there. It is so meaningful. May God continue to recover Uncle Joe heart and towards his assignment in STM wouldn’t be a rush though God’s timing is fast.

Big Day for Heng Kai and Ellie

Attended Heng Kai and Ellie wedding at TMC, PJ.

It was actually a rush day for me. Early in the morning 9am rushed to church to do a simple worship for the GB girls. Then have to set up all my presentation of the “Dedication of the Officers, Caplain, and Girls.” Am worried that they don’t know how to off the projector and etc. But I guess it all runs well. Because i receive no complain from church yet. Then at 10am, have to rushed home to fetch my sister to take her report card, walk up stairs of chinese school. How tall the building was with high heels.. Met the class teacher, I don’t really like her. :P But anyway, after that, fetch her to pack food then to Loke Yew Road. Wow.. Time speed so fast and it is 11am. The wedding start at 11am sharp.

By the time I reached there, I were late. I started with half way sermon. Really got encourage by the way Ellie told her story of hers and Heng Kai during bride shower. It was amaze. And I could really see how God grace move on day by day.

Love is always a big matter when 2 flesh unites together as 1 body. =)

Monday, July 5, 2010

toothache

sigh… problems come when toothache.

hard to chew food and cant even close up my mouth sometimes. But is not that pain as before that I have to see dentist.

Is the upper part of the jaw in pain, gum. hope nothing bad goes on… :)

Friday, July 2, 2010

kinda tired all day. dunno y… heart want to be at ease.

looking at the sky, clouds, it really gives me a peace of mind. i love it so much.

and if something more special is there being with me, is the most perfect thing to happen. :)

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Very Poor~~

Charm la… Why am i so poor?? Cheque still haven’t bank in.It was suppose to get on the 27th every month.. Then bank in on the next day. But this month, because of my diving course, I have lesser money to use… And some boss of mine, in church, they dunno how poor is others. They delayed till 29th, which is today. Then only giving it out. They think, we will go and bank in advance meh, if giving the cheque early. At least give on time, then I don’t have to suffer for no money la. Pocket only left RM10++. Not more than RM15. Still have to dig out my ang pow money to use.

 

Sob Sob.. >.<

 

Touch n Go, no more credit, have to pay cash to take lrt.

Buy food to eat for dinner if mum didn’t cook.

What’s more? Friend birthday celebration dinner….

Wah….. sob sob…

I guess have to take early salary from my another boss to survive to wait for the cheque to clear… Sad…. Real Poor

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Lunch at Zen

today went for buffet lunch in Zen, Sunway. Wow… Far-nya. But is worth… Compared to KL. Is cheap, that really shocked me, is just RM 55++. Affordable..

Everyone order as much as they want. Especially salmon and raw fishes… Is really worth for everyone as we ate more than RM55 for normal order sashimi moriawase. Chit Chatting, laugh, ugly stuff of ah Do.., and sort really cheer everyone up. and lastly for the green tea ice cream, haha… compete to finish it.

Thank you for this lunch invitation. But sadly Elaine is going off. This is to have farewell lunch with her and to celebrate Chee Wai’s birthday. They managed to pull a trick on him, which is a good one. :)

Accident

today is a day i nearly got into accident which can cause my life. Stupidity and the heart is angry. which lead me to this. Imagining fast lane driving with a sudden turn, and brake immediate and try to pull back the steering. And it slipped quite far and it moves to the slow lane. If there is a car sudden rush out from other lane and could not stop in time, I might be ended up my life.

but praise the Lord, that He sent His angel to protect me from any scratch or pain. And thru this, the anger has been control and yet have seen so much things that are real important to you.

And luckily the car is not badly damaged. It just the drive shaft broken, rim in scratch, and tyre holed. Hopefully the repair won’t be expensive.

 

And real sorry if i really made a mistake on it. >.<

Friday, June 18, 2010

Toy Story 3

Buzz Light Year!!!!…… ZzzZZzzz……..

Hoho.. Went for Toy Story 3 together with sisters… erm.. a good cartoon movie.

It teaches us not to leave our toys behind…

From young to old, for sure, you will throw away your toys, bears and etc. It meant so much for us when we were young. But how bout now, till this day? Do you still have your toy with you?

As for me, I still remembering, all my toys was beside me when I sleep. Though I didn’t touch it, but it was there for me to hug when I go to bed.

So cherish your toys and bears and etc…

Amigos   :)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Look back

Am i really stupid for love? That’s the reason i called stupidgirl? Yes and definately.

I’m always loyal and faithful.

What I meant is always be the true meaning. I’m not acting childish and foolish behavior.

What I hope, people will understand me much more better from what I said and not by saying I am ego, always think my self as right, and didn’t look at what own self doing and etc…

 

If you ever thought of this, and agree of others said bout me, you should comment and let me know.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Today was a Fairytale

It actually become one of my favourite song also.

It means alot.

The first time i felt it meaning is when “Sitting down together in the car, and this song ran through. It was exactly what happen. It stills bears in mind, how sweet is that time, where you would admit everything that you done.”

 

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty
When I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down
Whenever you're around


Can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale


Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale


Today was a fairytale
All that I can say
Is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down
Whenever you're around


But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale


Time slows down
Whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down


But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale


It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale

 

Wonder, which is her MTV. But this is the best i could found,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-S_we8jhi0

Sunday, June 13, 2010

and my ears had got better. Thank You Lord!

:)

Ipoh stay

Tower Regency was the placed we lived in Ipoh.

It was sorts of 5 stars hotel. I felt comfort when staying there. It liked my dream house design. There is only 2 rooms where 2 toilets are connected. And is a wow!!!

 

Had a nice trip with all the GB Officer. Had a good chat during the journey back. I’m driving… though is tired.. But I’m happy :)

We bought lotsa food when come back from Ipoh. Choose here and there, taken pictures of places….

Had a good laugh of the Exco members, our company, and etc… Reached home quite late but really enjoying the trip.

And maybe next year would be going to Kota Kinabalu. But is depends on my boss to let me off or not :P

Friday, June 11, 2010

Water in Ear

went for a doctor check up for my ears. Is all because water went into my ears. It has already been for 3 days since im back from Tioman. Doctor said, red inside. Poor me… think of infections. Scary!!! so better for me to see doctor. And is just RM39. Claim Kindergarten. Hahaha….

Dive trip in Tioman

after trip to Lang Tengah, been to Tioman, after the following week.

In Tioman, kinda relax, though the sand is not as white as Lang Tengah but is worth. Kinda worry at first when knowing the sun is so hot. But comes about after the arrival day, the sun is not that hot anymore. Is was breezing everyday.

Anxious heart on first day. Met Rey. Watch video once arrived. Learn from chapter 1 –5 from it in just 3-4 hours video. Tiring, sleepy, but still need to concentrate. Then Rey said, come back at 3pm for first Confined Water Dives. Resting in room then head back at 3pm. Rey doesn’t feel well, Sham was the first person who teach me. He is  a good leader, and what he taught, is really into my mind. Maybe part of his smiles and relax way, makes me easier and comfortable in first time trying Open Scuba. Not that hard at first time.

But comes second day, early in the morning, Rey began with my book review. To see if I could answer most of the questions. I could. :) Then he said, come back in the afternoon at 4pm. First time Rey teach, I’m a bit anxious. Can see he is quite straight. But of course, I know how to relax and listen to his words every single time. Is just for my safety that he is straight. He bring me to 10m for first. Swim out to the sea, reach the 10m, start to go down under, I felt so much pressure on my ears this time. It was hard for me to go down. I tried for second time. And the third, he said, if I can’t do it, he will postponed to tomorrow. Which I disagree and scared… I tried as hard as I could. Force myself down. I felt pain, but later on, I get use of it. And I did go underwater practice more of the skills in chapter 3 and 4. Neutral Buoyancy, Cramp Removal, Free Flow Regulator Breathing, Controlled Emergency Swimming Ascent, Air Depletion/Alternate Air Source Combined Exercise, Removing Weight Belt and BCD (Scary…), Buddy Breathing, Mask Clearing, and etc. The most make me feel uncomfortable is  Buddy Breathing cause have to share a regulator in 2 exhale breathe. It was hard. But other rest, I did without any trouble as I really folow instructions clearly. Learning hand signal was easy as Sham has taught me at first. After all this, Rey told me to come back at night to prepare for my test. Oh my… on my test, I’m just pass. 70marks. Haha.. which to his surprise, I could answer the correctly when he asked again referring to my wrong answers. But I count myself good :)

And last day which is the 3rd day, Rey said, if I could do this 3 dives in 1 day, there will be no problem anymore and I will pass. How great to think I can pass. But sad, I have to do 3 dives. 2 on boats and 1 more is going around and leisurely dives. Scared to wake up on the 3rd day. Because so many challenge on the next day… ARGH!!! What to do, still have to face it. Early in the morning, went out to Coral Island to dives. Felt so at first to sit on speed boat to go another Island. But after reach, wear the BCD, Rey ask me to do Sit Back And Roll Entry. I was like eh……. can i do it? He told me to follow him. Then start counting for 123, I still can’t go down. Scary I will get water in the nose and whatsoever comes… Then start counting 123 again, who knows I been pushed down by boat man. But luckily nothing happen. And quite surprise, I love the way it is. Fun…!! Then round around Coral Island following Rey to see sea creatures. And out of my expectation, I could see a turtle. But it was sleeping. Can’t enjoy and play with it. Under there, I was afraid also cause there is a place which no corals around, deep and even no fish.. It seems so scary like a dark room. But I should not be afraid because Rey and his friend is around.

Then all the dives, we head to Kg Salang for resting and be ready for my second boat dives. Eat burger as lunch, bought Rebena, and Orange Juice to avoid any cramp on my lips cause of too salty. After lunch, head to nearby Salang dives place, same thing, do Roll Entry, as I’m doing it myself now. More confidence, swim around again with Rey. There is a place where the current so strong that I’m not able to swim over, and Rey and friend have to return back to the boat directions. Hehe… I failed to swim over to another sides. This time I saw Sting-Ray. Wow… Although is a baby stingray, is worth. It swims fast. Really love the scene underwater.

The last dives comes after go to Marine Park enjoying big fish. :P

It happen at 5pm. still raining, but have to go on. Rey say I can’t escape this last dive. Is important. This time he bring me to more deeper as in 30m dives. Wow.. He said, I exceed the limit when going down cause he bring me to further which I didn’t notice how far it is.. Swim and swim, saw big fish, saw shark eggs, and nemo, dorry.!! :)  This last time, he want to practice Buoyant Emergency Ascent. This make me swallowed most of salt water. But he didn’t take the effort to make me do twice. He push me down again and let me do it to make my buoyancy positive where I have to blow air in the BCD. I could not use auto.. >.< sad case. By that I passed. Haha…

At night time, when I return, he say return tomorrow morning. And we invited him over to our place to hang out and drink some wines. Rey brought a friend along. Then all of us, minum kuat kuat. :P I’m happy that the alcohol drink I bought makes my sifu real happy as he love coffee. Wondering what alcohol with coffee?? Is only 1… Sheridan’s. And that make me “wee wang wang”.. but it was fun after a tiring day, and we end up eat and drink together at the restaurant.

 

3 dives and 2 cups of Sheridan’s. It was awesome!!! But end up with flu pills to avoid any of sickness. And water in my ears is not yet clear.!!

Friday, June 4, 2010

maturity

When i know you, u are like a small kid. But knowing what you want by your actions.

And now, when I see you, you are a person who really make everyone joyful, loving to be around with you.

What you been through no one else know unless you yourself.

Is proud to see you now in such an image.

* Tamie love to see everyone grow up to be mature man and woman. It makes herself think she made changes in everyone else life who stay close with her.

God bless you all :)

Teacher’s Day Present :)

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By some children in my school. 

Thursday, May 27, 2010

life second

is been long time didn’t blog…..

tired of life and work again…

but thankful.. today is the day where we leave KL to our destination!!!

YES!!! HERE WE COME LANG TENGAH!!!

can snorkel, enjoy the sun, and relax…

 

Also give thanks for what is happening in school right now. Evaluation is over, marking is over, just waiting for the papers and filling in report card. Then have to wait for PT Conference, meet up with parents. Talk here and there. And new semester is here soon.

And mostly the children who are sick has return back to school.

Bout personal life, is call complicated. I got no idea what he think. Say i change, putting blames, digging past life, accused me. But he still say he should this and that. he can’t control. Part of mentioning is his act. But how come, he didn’t realize, he change? and the way he talk is 2 person? Sometime this and sometime that. That make people frustrated. He doesn’t even know what he want! Then say me this and that… Sigh to him…

 

And by Christ name, I did no wrong to anyone and i live according to God wants me to live. I had enough TOO!!!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

didn’t realize teacher’s day has passed but the real day celebration in kindie is not yet…

We are currently having Mid Year Evaluation. So time being, we can’t held any party or whatsoever. And is a traditions to leave it to the last day before school holiday.

 

School is a dangerous place now to become a infected place of A H1N1. The disease spread all over… Sigh.. Now Eunice Woon, and Toh Willbinn, both my fav student is resting at home. Contaminated of it. Pray that there won’t be nothing serious happen to them.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

ponteng

oophs… piggy life style makes me ponteng church again.

em… sigh………

Saturday, May 15, 2010

past

how would u feel if ur ex gf or bf, come to you and said, “can we get back together? those things happen has past and since we known each other for so long, lets not waste our time though there is lots of girls and guys waiting for me outside.”

What do you felt?

Proud?

Sympathy?

or… you will think as bullshit?

 

In my mind, i will just say, “Now only you know how precious am I? Knowing how good am I to you, that is why you willing to come back to me after so many years.??” This is what i am going to say if i really meet this kinda people. But of course not making it till embarassing. And it wont promise to be together with him or anything better.

 

What you have now, is the most best things you have. Past was the most you ever had. Future, yet to see, and it will be granted good, if we crop it nicely.

 

So, cherish what you have now, and be appreciate everything you have. At least you had before… :)

Friday, May 14, 2010

??Bullshit??

Lying is the most best idea…

Talk…. Bullshit!!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Monie celebration 2010

Rakuzen in Chulan Square for dinner .

Before that, stop at Sg. Wang to purchase shampoo. At first glance after so long did not been down there, it was so quiet. Don’t feel the crowds around.. So peaceful. And it given me a picture of Sg. Wang is going down, just like other mall nearby.

But I’m sure Sg. Wang won’t face that kind of problem.

Then head on to Isetan, Lot 10. Wanting to visit the bar there. It was so ambience (wrote by magazine) but I did not really go up to the 8th floor. Seems scary to go alone. But there will be next time.

Next to Pavilion waiting for eewern together to Rakuzen. Had a bit of chat… It is indeed a good time gather around with ex school mates. It was so cool, laughing, remembering past, sadness, and etc.

Of course, wanting to gather more. But we know each other timing as well. :)

Cheers, buddies…

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

On!!!!

OPEN OPEN OPEN!!!


Is Open again....

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Memoires of Grandpa

Yes, I’m happy and be graceful enough to watch something that makes my family proud. And is Ip Man. Originally guy from Foshan who knows Wing Chun Kung fu.

Why i said, makes my family proud? It is because I remember what my mum told me that my grandpa, (means my mother’s dad) knows Wing Chun.

And to come and realize it when I’m young, I still remember, he worked as a Chinese Meds Therapy doctor. As a Chinese doctor that time, it was an awesome job. But come to think more of it, I still remember his house, there is a big punch bag hanging right after the middle hall way. And there is a wood block which Ip Man has it used it to practice hand hitting. Hahaha… been trying to hit that wood block before, i still remember, it really made of heavy wood that could injured hands if doesn’t even know how to use it. Even so… I also did remember, grandpa did also practice his martial art there. Teaching his son(my uncle), basic steps in “Chat Ma”.

Yea…  that makes my family proud. I’m so proud to have him as my grandpa. And i remember, how he love me and my sisters. We were so close together. His name is Wan Siu Loon. A unique name for such a “great” grandpa.

 

I Love You.

Unworthy

how unworthy am i? I can’t get love from u? Because of your act, saying me this and that. How am i suppose to live? According to your words? You say one thing, i must follow? Do i have to live like a dog? What do you take me as? Important? Or not? When I’m being told I’m childish, being scold, saying things untrue about me, why wouldn’t you protect my name?

Is it I’m unworthy in You??

Mother’s Day celebration in GB

today GB celebrated mother’s day and Christine birthday. It was actually kinda busy day for me to toast the bread. Haha.. My job was to toast the bread for the kids to make sandwich. Sigh.. how i wish i could be more useful. as in helping out. But i didn’t complain to any of them. As i got to know, serve and u will be served. Just take it la. Is part of ministry.

We have a little surprise for Christine as she is busy for her flower host for service. And good to say, she do it in the room, where no one else could disturb her and she don’t know what is happening outside. We have prepared a birthday cake, noodles, and kfc. When we invited her out, she cried because of so touching, we prepared it for her a little surprise. As usual sang song blar blar n blar.. :)

Then after GB, i went in office just to finish the church tshirt design. And i did get jealous why would they call pastor to eat but not me. Em.. another problem from me.. Why would i be so negatively. Sigh..

But i do felt glad, that time i come out right after finishing, I was being asked where am i, I received flower from my Pionner girl, Siew Yee. Thanks to her to cheer me up with flower. And Wye Yan too, as she served and willingly help to pack food for me as i was rushing to fetch my mother.

Thanks to u guys. I know God did something else behind me. He calm me down every raging sea.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

 

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The bear cost RM60 and the love cost RM10.

( handmade bear )

Friday, May 7, 2010

hurting again

the entire was already tired. back home adding tired from him.

and this is the last time where he said, things is over…

he deleted my stuff in msn, hotmail and etc…

this made me hate what he is doing. so immature, stupid…

y cant he let me live happy by not seeing him anymore, letting me have my friends…

how could it be that selfish from him to stop me and all my friends to communicate and even to chat. keep saying i LIE, HIDDING, and did say imI’m coward…

what it is to prove im a coward? Did he even realise what he is doing and thinking is right or wrong?? How can such man act according to his will?

OMGsss.. Is making me throwing temper again and again. and i did even asking my mum to leave as she trying to help. I was in lost… My mail has been deleted which i urge for it. I was in a lost mood and just slept for 3 hours plus…

Why on earth he want to make me suffer? Is that nice? making himself more better? =.=”

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Drizzling

it felt so long that i did not walk under the rain and i did today. it was because i forgotten to put my umbrella in my bad. it was so nice.

Start to think back during primary school where, everyday, walk home under the rain. playing in the rain, and even flood in the school to cause us all to bare foot to keep our school clean and dry. So enjoying thinking back of the past.

But not much memories of under the rain during secondary school days. Though there is, but the capture is not that strong.

But i do cherish what God has made with rains. With it, we survive, we do not get burn by hot sun and hot temperature. So nice!!!

So bless…

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

mistake

days after days… argument still goes on.

but it seems quiet down ady for today..

really wonder what is in his mind.

everyday wan to fight for the same old past things of relationship, how good it is as last time to be as in couple, accusing me that i have alot of admirers, chat with guys non stop. love to hang out with my friends compare to him. and ETCS….

 

but kinda happy that he slowly slowed down to not to contact me. sometimes really wanted to sack him off in my life. because of his annoying and irritating attitude. Sigh… but i’m not this kinda people. I really want to stay pure as friend with him.

hopefully he will understand this sooner in his life. learn up the mistake. and yes, people who can’t cope with problems, they can’t learn from it.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

many things had happen this week.

1) after BOIC, Edmund said, he will change the way he talk, act towards me. He thought I'm like his angel. He said to listen to my words.

2) A happy going life went on but it strike start on Friday. Argument happen. Because we have different thoughts in life, as his ideal job career, argument with boss and sorts.

3) Kinda happy because I went up to Genting for the first time of this year (I guess) with him. It was quite tired but i still went on outing with him because i felt different from him though i don’t want to let him have so much of hopes.

4) Why am i still forgiving him for all he done? WHY am i still so silly stupidGirl!!!!

 

I did return back the phone to Douglas, but I’m still not sure, he want me to repay a new one for him cause of the scratch mark i made.. If he don’t, I will buy Iphone and camera. If he wants I will just buy back a phone for him. and no camera. Sigh……

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

BOIC Training

well, had my Boic first camp training on 17 and 18 April. It held in FRIM.

It was exciting as it serve as Adventure Ministy (MAPs).

It was quite an early morning wake up. Getting ready, packing and etc preparing to go. Reached the place at 8.30am morning. Saturday morning! How I wish I could sleep more longer. But i couldn’t because of paid RM100 for it. Regret if I’m not going for it. Upon reaching sure argument with Edmund again la. Cause he is those kind who don’t like outing and never experience once about it. But i don’t care bout it. I just think of how to enjoy myself throughout the camp.

As usual, I’m the first one to arrive. Hehe.. Being proud of myself. Then came Samuel. As time pass, reaching 9am, seeing more and more people around. And we do wait till 9.30am to 10 am. Wow.. But is ok…

Then everyone introduce themselves as we waited at the front gate. Knew of their names Melissa, Joyce, Ameline (hope i spell correctly), Samatha, Bee Lee, Ian, and Lee Yen. Then we head to the place to get our weekend bike to travel in to FRIM and around the FRIM. I had choose my own bike number 5. Well, it follows me… ^.^ Enjoying the ride to our campsite. We been intro and games with ice breaker with each other before lunch. Everyone enjoying the ice break very much and get to know each other much more.

Then after lunch, we had to go for our obstacle race with our bike. Ride it up hill and down hill. Long, narrow and etc…. All using our own leg to cycle thru. It was a hard time where going up the hill. We go through 2 place. 1st is for easy training. 2nd is for real life experience.

Everyone felt the first trip was hard. But when we tried on the second hill, it was more challenging. Even harder. But there is a great treasure waiting for us on top of the hill, that is mini water fall. Is sorts of Spring of Living Water. Because we worked so hard to reach on top. It refresh everyone up there. It is cooling and breezy and even butterflies around makes the surround even more beautiful. It was awesome! and totally God’s creation.

And our hard work up, also makes a good results as we began to cycle down to the hill. :)

But it was good time for all to enjoy and knowing each other ability. helping each another. We went through a session of how to handle questions and answers. As in real training in MAPs. It is efficient. Then we have our solo hour session. It is a time where we reflect back what God has told us in our life. As in a life prayer, faith , favor with God. Or sort of chit chat time personally in the middle of the jungle alone with no lights and phones. What we can bring is our own heart and a mosquitoes coil. Is kinda creepy outside alone. With so many unfamiliar insects, animals and even leeches! Raindrop so scary… The water dripping. Movement in the bushes. But prayer keeps my 20 minutes goes faster. Was sitting down at the pogon. Not daring to move around. Thought of how good if I were in KL enjoying the lights. :P

Not forgetting to mention sweaty all day long till at night only took bath. Haha…

Then lights off.

Till exiting part in the early morning. Some ice break again to keep us awake. Took breakfast, then Tree Climbing! yea….!! Just a semi static rope tied with a Bight and a Bowline. That is how we climb up with an additional Prussic on our legs to step on. But too bad. Dr Yap, forgotten and replace the karabiners bag. So we took another Figure of 8 Bight and a single Prussic tied to our waistline. It was successfully made. And easy climb. :P 

Everything we played took a short time as they expected us to end late or taking even longer time to do it. We were all proud of ourselves. YEA!

Then we move on to the last that is Treasure Hunting for map. I’m excellent because I spotted mostly for the flags. Hoho..

Everything end at 3 something. Then we have a discussion again for topic. It took us nearly 2 hours for it. From then on, we move separately from our camp. Had everyone email from the previous mail but not phone number la. seems so oldies.. haha… I really enjoy at the end of it. Though i been bite by leech in the jungle before tree climb. But it worth, at least i had my first bite. ^.^

Thursday, April 15, 2010

am getting more n more tired la from wat he gave me…

keep on pressuring me. asking me to treat him fair, wanting the best of me as in i need to do everything based on his feelings his is the first priority…

n i just can say sorry for i really cant do it.

If this still comes after this day of 3 months, I’m surrendering myself to God, and ask God to take care of him. real tired.

 

n hopefully God will recover and find those who have earthquakes again. Happening in China, 6.9. Have mercy on us please…

Monday, April 12, 2010

Unsatisfaction

comes from heart of his when he felt he is not being respected.

Well.. i can say is part of my wrong, being too hurried just to grab ticket for movie without knowing his feelings.

But what i did is for everyone. which he cant be understood of it. so no point explain of this. And i did told him, it was just a small matter where he will agree anyway of what kind of movie. And he say to make fuss, just because of i didnt ask. And made him mad when comes to ordering snack also. Saying don’t want to buy together with him, never cares of his feelings, this and that. Im getting fed up actually. Just i didn’t show out. Till in the cinema, sat at the place, message comes. it was from him. How silly it is, that i told him b4 that i hate such things. Where u still sms when i sit just around the corner. Waste of time, effort and not even respecting me too…

What do you say?

Revenge? No!

and sooner, argue comes because i don’t wan to see the sms from him. I was so mad. Sis sms arrive asking us not to argue cause there is other person still together with us. I would reply, I hope so. But my line is barred. So? He grab my phone and once again make me slap him directly at his face. He deserved it because there were warning lots of times. It is not the first time. His dissatisfaction is out then…. Wanting to see my phone who sms me.. And he guess is Andrew who did it. But too bad, i wont prove him right. It always been. Never change by his judging and even proven him right or wrong, this is his bad HABIT! And i did prove to him that he is wrong. Can see how much of unwillingness to accept the bet that i gave him by asking him to leave cinema if it was my sister. How stupid is this guy! Never ashame of himself.

And argue continue when i leave the cinema. Then he left. I just went out to have some peace of mind knowing i can’t continue the movie. Find a place to settle down myself and for lunch. But too bad. Calls keep on coming from him. Again dissatisfaction from him cause too much of sms that i did not reply. He felt guilty that is why he keep on calling.

In this world, if he or she don’t feel guilty, they wont even mention bout it. But how sadly it is…. Keep on Disturbing people till he is to let go. Never a sorry from him till at night..

Prayed to God asking is this happening to me. Why must this guy act till this way, and can’t listen to people’s word. Does he knows how to respect people at all? No idea. When he is happy, he do what he like. When he is unhappy, he will involve u along. What on earth! Y not he open his heart to make people happy when he is sad? Why must drag others along? a big question mark in my mind….

 

?

Friday, April 9, 2010

tribulation

it seems so many things happen in the world right now…

earthquake, curfew, politics, death of sudden, sickness and sorts…

it like the end of the world where tribulation is here.

pre, tri and post…

Today discussion is on Mark 16. where God is back to the world where He resurrected. He told Mary, he is back, no one believe. He met 2 disciples but still no one trusted them. At the end, when Jesus appear at the table meal, they all surprise and Jesus rebuke them.

It is all by faith… By the trust of the Lord, The Son and The Holy Spirit are real. That these day of Jesus come back to condemn the world. I believe that God has his way in every human life…

And this might be PRE….

 

Amen.

May Lord has His way to lead this world.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

headache…

 

having argument everyday with him. it is like never ending.

I can surely say, he is the one who look for fight everyday. And i cant really take it anymore, sooner or later. I don’t know why do i need to be patience with him so much. It makes me sick and till the extend is ANNOYING and making me to avoid him more and more!!

What on earth is this man! Who keeps me going repeated for the same words, same phrases, same attitude from him! That is the most irritating!!

Argh…!!

When will he change for goods?

When will he know what he did was wrong?

When will he be real mature to understand people’s feeling?

When will it be???

As he said 3 months time? I’m saying impossible. Where by i said 2 years to see his changes. If still no, better stop bah… waste my time (it has already been less than 1 and half year!!)

Monday, April 5, 2010

promise again

things been thru.. sweet memories, love the kiss he gave me. love the hug he gave me. all around felt so comfort... dont even want to let go... but i know is all fated.
he still have his bad stuff and habits. i just cant go through with it.
felt unhappy everytime when he disagree me or go different wave length from me. It make me dislike. And my caution line is there whenever he came near. sigh...
hope he really change for goods as he promise 3 months time.
I shall then see...

Friday, April 2, 2010

shopping day again...

haha... over runfor shoipping as i thought nothing i could purchase again from mall.
Actually plan was to buy bras, swim wear, and 2 pair of shoes.
Then found out swim suit was so expensive. I went in to Roxy, don't dare to look at the price. As design is not really that nice. Then walk here n there to Sun Paradise, separate parts, each cost RM100++. Then i decide not to buy from it.
Walk n walk..... Went to Forever 21, em... have a look out, bought much item which cost more than RM200++. Inclusive of my swim wear only cost RM49, Hehe... Nice price. But mostly gone to the clothing.
Then, walk to next shop that is Cotton On. Bought 2 bras cost Rm75 only. Cheap le... so decide to buy since i already thought for long. Needed new one.
Then walk to Nose, to some shoes. Selected one of it, cause lack of money....

All i do was sticking to the plan, but over use. Haha... is alright le... Once in a while, to cheer myself up.
Hehe....
But i really need to keep up some money and not to spend so much cause i need money for scuba and future use. Hoping new things can come.

And sad things happen.... my adidas watch got broken. sob sob...... My one and only watch that i could wear out to work.... Sigh.. It was a gift from friend. But nevermind la.. It gotten 3 years already. It's time up. So have to let go and buy new one. Anyone wanna buy me? Em... think of it, but i don't think there is. Haha....

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Maundy Thursday 2010

first day having my blog to be private... how does it feels? em...
curious mayb.. because is once in my life time i have decide that this is happening. Hehe...

Oh well... today is Maundy Thursday. The day where Jesus crucified and died and rose from the death. Indeed is a thanksgiving. That Jesus who died for us. Taking away all our sins. Bringing the pain of the world together. Im sure He will be here again. To see the world by coming like a thunder with clouds.. And the world will see amazing Him. N tat will be our crucification day.

So, wash your feet today as Jesus humble himself to wash away our feet. :)

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

last day

here is the last day coming to make the blog private. :) 
cheers...

Monday, March 29, 2010

lazy to blog tim....
long to blog.....
guess it just ended....

Monday, March 22, 2010

Nooka~~

Am proudly present, the brand new watch named Nooka...
It was actually designed by my friend bibichun and few of his graffic friends.
The price of the watch + brand is actually more expensive than a swatch watch. 
Can be compare to fossil or other brand watch.
Is a sporty types of watch, and suit those who loves graffiti, streets art, designs, and cool stuff.
Is actually a quite cool brand new watch in the market. 
I bet you will loved the design of the watch.
How i wish i got one as my present. Hahaha......
But to ask me, which one do i prefer as a gifts, between classic or cool watch like this, i could hardly choose. Search google for Nooka or please log on http://nookastyle.blogspot.com/2009/09/h5-in-malaysia.html and http://www.nooka.com/

Saturday, March 20, 2010

worth

wee~~~ went to swim yesterday. it was nice and cool...
the water is warm in the afternoon. Compare to the land, i rather to be in water. Is a very nice feeling being inside the water. Loving it when swim alone. No troubles, problems and even not much humans because of the hot sun.
Too bad was, the sun is direct on top of my head. My sister do asked me, where do i went. I was joyfully answer, when to swim. Imagining a day swim can cost my skin darken. But never mind, if it was the thing i enjoy to do during that moment, it would be worth.

XD

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Digi + Iphone

I have submitted a form to purchase iphone on digi.com.my. Today is the last day of submitting it as the first based customer who got this iphone on digi. No price, no other related given details, i already filled up the form and submit it. To think back, what if they require me to pay Rm300 or more just for the phone or paying total of the payment of the iphone? Em... I will be in so broke by then.

But i dont care, cause their plan might as well as maxis. Being pay Rm300 ++ for the monthly phone for a year. I think after this phone, i don;t have to buy phone gua. Still considering, do i really have to survey for nokia 6700c as my phone.....

Emmm............

song

Taylor Swift- Love song
is always my favourite song.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

today

i wish to go home early during holiday after work.
i probabily finish my work at 4 or 5.
i wish i could meet my bed.
stay online to see what is latest new of the world.
do my kindie work. relax, sleep, music.
but after work, i still need to stay on till 6, go to mother's office, wait for her till 7 or 8.
then go home. is kinda boring. i wish i could spent time alone at home.
not in appetite of having dinner. just ate some  meat to cover my stomach.
really tired as cant sleep yesterday due to headache problem of thinking some thought too much.
and i want so much of it.!!

@.@ release my thought.
God help me..!!!

are you?

things is so hard....
to get in hand
to be in control
to be grab hold
to be like@love
to be change
what ever it said, is all false and untrue
are you?
are you one of them?
just say one word, enough to cover everything?
and means you are forgiven?
or did you try to say TQ because u learn so much??

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Attention!!

Please to be informed that this blog will end up its public posting on end of April. If any of you, who wish to continue to read on my blog, please be notify me. so that i could still let u all to catch up with my life.


(Oh well, i don't think there will be people will reading my blog :P)

Leave

is a good start for u, for u start to begin a new relationship.
maybe u craving for love, or maybe u r playing a fool or maybe u r going to last it long. 
is happy and joyful to hear that.
Meanwhile, i be single and trying to enjoy my life.
Single for sale!!!! (IS A JOKE!)
lol...

Anyway, since u let me know ur heart, i let u know mine also la... be fair...
I still love u. I pass by ur office when im free to check on u are u in office.
Everytime i clean my house, i think of u. How u cleaned my house together while i'm being pampered.
Everytime i drive myself to mall, knowing how good it is, when someone could drove me out.
Everytime i walk out of the house, how i wish there is someone closed the door and walk behind me.
Everytime i use my laptop, i wish someone beside me.
Everytime i work, i wished someone would call me and wait for me after work.
When ever i drive home myself, i wanted to go to stadium have a peek on u.
Everytime i sleep on my bed, i felt the emptiness on my bed. And someone will woke me up from sleep.
I do wrote a small little blog begins on the day of knowing. If u wanna curious to know, i can let u see the blog. But after seeing i don wan any heart ache or pain, cries or what so ever stuff comes from u.
And blar blar blar....
Don't wanna talk about it anymore la....
I'm here to wish u the best of luck in your new relationship.


Monday, March 15, 2010

1st day of school term break

life has been up and down. and today has been the first day of school term holiday. I was supposed to be in Tioman to learn up my diving course. Cause of no one wanna go with me. So i choose to cancel and try to plan it to June. Then, i end up to be at KL. Not going anywhere but just work. Sigh.... Sad case....

But is a relaxing day, as not much appeared. But dunno about tomorrow. I hope it won't be terrible. And aunt Christine told me, Friday will go for swim with children at condo. Wondering, do or should i go to pool with bunch of kids. Problematic........

hoping tomorrow is not a bad day.

Am missing someone.
Hehehe....

Saturday, March 13, 2010

finishing house chores..
thought of past, how u clean my house together.

programme

went to dinner in kiku with friends. had a great time chat and laugh.
then went to yum cha again in old town, taman midah.
visitation to choy teng's baby full moon.
yum cha again in quan's cafe in pandan indah.


through out the whole sessions, i still felt being alive. as in not sleepy.
wonder why. i felt like torturing myself when this friday comes.
cause i know, or hopefully, i can rest in weekend.
and this kinda life is always needed cause friends know that, we are important to each other.