It really come to me that I became to blog lesser. Is because life doesn’t excite much?

Maybe……

Now a days, I try so hard to find meaning of life. How to enjoy my life…

Till the end, I go club to Zouk more often because of my membership that I could enter for free.. Is just a visit and some music to bang my mood. Then head home. Didn’t drink most of the time.

Till Sunday, I went to church. To felt God present. I knew He is there. There for me so much…

Friends, not been contacting much, because I believe, everyone have their own busyness. So I would rather stay home alone and face computer doing some work, or even play games or sleep.

That is what I been doing all the time. Nothing change.

And new job in Heguru, things are getting better. More getting use with what I am doing… More familiarize.

But I just dislike my work in Vista. Maybe just 4 walls. But I will try to adapt my life. It might be slightly change as well…

Thinking. Pondering. Is all about heart feeling..

is now the month of May. And I’m kinda dilemma with things on my mind. As 2 years coming in 2 months time. I wonder how would I be, how would I act, how I contact him, all these has been running in my mind. Is unsolved. But the a year has passed since last year of this date 9/5/2010, I tried and requested him to be back with me. I guess, is also 2 years before, the same thing happen.

 

Is ok… I’m happy with what I have now just lack of some love. God said, be patience and wait. And the day will be arriving soon. How much changes he has been and how much he realized he was wrong in his past doing. I really wonder… Y God want me to proposed this 2 years of patience, would it because of LOVE? What happen if it is not going to happen to be a pleasant way? What am I gonna do. Smile and leave? Knowing and accepting new  guy?

I really ponder….