Activities + Washing

this is the most tiring day in Broga... Every participant leaves this place today. And is an empty spot again. Is good for resting actually. :)

Yesterday as i was mentioned, there were a group of old people that will handled by Billy, this group was actually from the Grace Assembly. They came to support their own church place. They were one family members. Seeing old, young, and adults in 3 generation of family coming together was good. They done  mostly flying fox as it was exciting for them. For Leap of Faith, only a girl named Esther do it. But she was so scared up high to catch the bar that was so far away from her. Then for the rock climbing, a woman, did it to top. Then the 2 kids, as i have mentioned Esther and another is Sarah. Esther did it quite well. She could climb so fast for the first and second time. It was amazed. As for Sarah, she is the youngest ones, she could not do it because of her heights. Her leg is not long enough to go to next step high. But it was an enjoyment seeing 1 big family coming together to participate in the activities.

And today, as usual, morning wake up at 5am, going out for sunrise again. Dark cloudy cloud blocking the sun coming out again. Sigh.. was so sad.. Live in Broga, but could not see it coming out without the clouds. Aiks... But am happy to see the big family could really reached the top. Wow!! They even made it to the second peak. I was so shok to see the old lady to walk up hill with tongkat stick.!!! Hehe...


After the climb, all of us, head for breakfast which had been prepared for us. Chatting with the family making me feel relax, especially the girl Sarah, did gave me alot of joy. Even Esther she was so sporting to try to persuaded me to draw with her while in the dining room@meeting room. . ^.^

Well, after the family left, I was incharged to do cleanning up, of all the equipment. Have to wash the helmets, pulley strings, harnes and etc. A tiring day washing things especially those helmets. They are dirty and really stinks. Haha.. And i did finish it ady by my own strength. If i could have time, i will wash the rope also. But it is really tiring for me to do now. Guess, i be doing it tomolo. Since no one will be coming again tomolo.

P/S: New year is near... Wondering what can i do in Broga....

3rd day in Outbac

Is been the 3rd day I am in Outbac, working.

Well, first day experience was tough. As I need to handle a group of people, doing "Belay". Aiks. Tough for the kecil miau like me. That i have to pull the string when they are up, in the "Rock Climbing" and "Leap of Faith". Minimum strength and size can't help much. But there is someone whom have experience to help me on and to tell me what to do. I guess I can do it much better next time. The most thing i enjoy to do here is flying fox. Not much energy using. Just climb up the high ladder then tie up people.  XD

2nd day is the long day activities for me. As i need to get up early in the morning at 5am. Not sleeping in the staff quarters but sleep in the office due to too many people was in Outbac. Sob sob.. Waking  up, same thing, getting ready for Broga Hill. No more problem as in getting up and going down. Maybe because of my new pair of shoes??? Hehe... Then come back rest for a while. Waiting for another group of people coming in at 9am. Wow... Activities non-stop till 5pm. Dr Yap was being introduced to the group. Charmaine was with the group together coming along. Majorities in the group are malays. But it doesn't matter because God news can be spread all around to everyone. :)

Having a great fun and theme building with them. Actually is a quite devastating for them, seeing them "less fortunate" in the company. But they have proven that, they are good and excellent worker. :) It hopes to teach them so method in how to handling and facing problems in the office.

ar well, 3rd day is the free day~~~ wouuuu~~~
been sleeping dunno for how many hours. Waking up early in the 7.30am.. Cycle to office, had a lil. breakfast outside the obstacle place. Then cycle again to the whole Outbac. See and check out things everywhere. Saw water lilies growing from the pond. It was beautiful and grown gracefully. And i checked out the lil.frog. Eventually all grown up to mini tadpole. Such an amazing things that only happen in 1 day. Everything can be changed fast. But why not human? Sigh....

Had a rest till next group coming in in 1pm... Another day to go through. Billy is going to handle them, because mostly of them are old people. So, have a clicke!!!! XD

Thank You

A big thank you to those who had given me birthday and Christmas present. I like all of the presents. It is so useful to me. I really love it.

Mostly, i would like to thank my boss, Christine for her continually support in my life. I knew this special lady from the STM Camp in 1998. She is the one who became my "Guardian Angel". Someone who looked after me during the camp. From that onwards, she has been always my guardian angel. People who supporting, helping, loving, and caring for me. She also plays a part as a lovable mother  to me. Cook lunch, and dinner for me. Whatever comes from her, is a precious gift from God. Is also a blessing from God that I have took it from the angel. And whenever I'm in need, she tries to help out. Is so amazing, how God blessed me.

in 1 week…

holiday start on 25th. but guess what?

i will start my work in outbac tomorrow. will work for a week.

 

WHAT??? Can’t survive without work?

well, is rather than doing ntg. Thought of going to penang for holiday but no one is free for me. For that, i will spend alot of money. so, i choose broga. A place to relax myself, play, fun, refresh before start in kindie again. Is kinda headache also cause work there is “tough”.   :P   is better to work than to spend.

well… is God plans i guess. Just do it.

Don’t miss me ya.

Returning to outbac.

Christmas

weee…~~~~ is christmas..!!!

celebration here n there.. decorations all very nice in the shopping mall. The day has come again in once a year. It suppose not an event to celebrate. But joy to the world that the saviour was born XD

 

yesterday, church had an evening service. Not many people attended but is also very merry.

after dat had dinner + celebration of aaron birthday there. Looking for good food in TGI Friday. Is just so convenient and is Friday! hehe…

the most is giving and receiving and even sharing. Happy for it.

On Christmas eve

  On Christmas Day (The amount increased)

presentation

1 more day to Christmas. An event to be meaningful.

So tired after doing the slide show presentation for the Christmas party celebration. Doing it for 3 hours ady.

tired……

wondering y it took me so long.     

pictures….  effects…… transitions……

sigh.

but I’m doing it with a joy because I know well the purpose why I’m doing it because it meant to spread God good news. XD

 

May God grant everyone a silent night.

Surprisingly, yesterday in Redbox Plus, Pavilion, i was holding the mic for the whole night just to sing songs. To those who knows me, they will feel surprise because i never wanting to hold it more then 2 songs. Indeed is a good night when i release all my breath in the room. Everything is just fine and i did enjoy my night, though is only 3 friends with me. I’m satisfy!

 

Thank you Khong Sin, for buying me a cute little small cake which is enough for me alone to eat it. It is the second time that she made a cake appear on my birthday. :)

Thank you Pui Yee for coming and selected every song for me, sing with me, and laugh together.

Thank you Suet Yin your willingness to come even though you have to help out your mum at stall. I love you!

 

Specially thanks to those who wishes me, calling, sms, and etc. You guys are great! May God bless you all too!!

 

Agape.

24 years old and 1 day.

 

Come to Bethlehem and see,

Him whose birth the angels sing;

Come, adore on bended knee,

Christ the Lord, the new born King.

                                                                             

To find true joy at Christmas, look at Jesus.

Number

Number for magnum today.

How I thought it won’t come out. But it does. Is the first time. And is nearing my birthday. And I did make a promise to someone when this number is out. But i guess, it won’t work out because I could not bear it.

24th Birthday

yeah!!! This is the day!

Im 24th… Wow.. time flew…

Hehe…

Went up to Look out Point with Shook Kwan, Pooi See, and Choi Peng. Thanks for their time to spend a short meeting for me. It was a nice one. Thanks especially Pooi See, she is working on Public Holiday and still hang out with me until 1 o’clock. Choi Peng as she rushed back from her friend birthday also. Last but not least, Shook Kwan, she was shopping with her mum in Econsave, drive us, and even have a birthday cake for me…!!

I’m so touched. Though there is no birthday song, but we know what is most satisfying. That is friends.

This is what i called true friend. XD

Have to wake up early morning to go shopping tomorrow with Aunty Connie in Ikea, 1U, and sorts. Hehe… and at night, party time in Redbox Plus, Pavilion.

Will update the rest in tomorrow. :)

2 days has over. Now left 1 more days..

3 days......

Broga Hill Outbac

What? Again? Not bored meh??

Hehe… This time i went there with my fellows youth groups. Which is in combinations of teens, college teens and young working adults. This 3 groups age range is around 13 – 32 years old. Actually is not bored when u have a companion of laughter, good groups to be there.

 

Day One 

Before we start our journey, everyone was lingering around in church compound very happily because very curious of how does the place look like, exciting, seeing friends that cant see often. When the time we reach Outbac, everyone was feeling hot and sweating because of the weather is “really” too hot for everyone. Everyone was looking for shelter and air-cond if there is. When the workers there, Cecelia, Richard and Billy open up the main door for us, we were so happy to see our hall which we going to use for 4 days and 3 nights. Though the air-cond is not perfect enough for everyone, but we fill with joy seeing nature around us.

We have our first orientations, start with a simple introduction from our instructor, Billy and Cecelia. We checked in after the intro. Who knows, air-cond is not cold enough in the room. And makes everyone complain in da room. But is ok… As we know, is just a campsite, we do not expect it to be a 5-star hotel.

After arranging bed sheets, pillow, selecting the beds in the rooms, we moved on with our first session, “Don’t Be A Stranger”. Douglas planned the game “Guardian Angels”, which we did not played for a long time since 2003?. After taking owns papers for own mortal, we moved on to next programme to wash out, then dinner.

Is tiring for all of us to start our first sessions on the first day. Aiks…!! What to do, have to stay on awake for the session “HOLY or HOLEY”. And we do learn what Holy means.

H = Honoring God     

O = Obeying God       

L = Loving God         

Y = Yearning for God

Day Two

Wow.. waking up early for Broga Hill as planned. Tiring. 5am wake up. Sigh. Second times going up hill. Walking again.. Sob Sob  :’(   but kinda exciting to see da sun. Well, as normal being a facilitator have to guide people up. Is Amber again. Haha… Well, she made a good record this time. Reaching up faster than the first time. Though can’t see the sun, cause black clouds covering the sun but the view is still nice. Quite cold and i do enjoyed the time when on top of hill with Cecelia, Billy, Richard and Eve too. We had a few picture taken with Eve. :)

Then we walked down hill back to Outbac. Reaching there around 8.30am and is time for breakfast. Haha… Everyone was so hungry and never had enough of ‘Nasi Lemak’. Immediately finish breakfast, we had morning devotions.

Argh!!! Sleepy head wanting to sleep but still attending Session 2 that is “What is Worship?” Well this theme is a directed message on how to worship.

Worship is a lifestyle so does Holiness.

True worships is thru mind, emotions and will.

Wanting ZZzz… when attending Workshop 1 “Mid-Sex Crisis”. We actually were divided to boys and girls to tell out what makes a man, MAN and what makes a woman, WOMAN. A war happen in the room as we debating. Hehe.. But it all make clear by Pastor Augustine.

When time Pitstop, means resting,I straightly went to bed ZzZzzz… Can’t take it anymore. :P Then move on to game time which also organised by Douglas. Sigh… Helping out to watch them over thru the game. What a boring job and still remain sleepy.. haha… After game, everyone bathe, dinner bathe and here goes Session 3 “How to Stay Holy”…

Luckily I’m a night ghost. Hehe… Actively stay awake at night time.

It tells us that life transforming is to be more like Christ.

“Be Salt and Light to all people”.

And Pastor Desmond, asking is there any people who would like to receive Christ as personal Saviour. And i was praying hard that there will be people who accept Christ in this camp. Silent on. Great news received when being asked for second time. There is… They are Qi Tyng, Joanne, Michelle, and  Katherine.

Praise the Lord!!

 

Day Three

Waking up at 7.15 am, breakfast, morning devotions and Session 4 “Perseverance” starts. It truly encourage new comers in God presence to preserved on in Christians Life. After Session 4 ends, lunch with the game guardian angel. The whole day was free… Proceed with the outdoor games planned, then Kayaking, Rock Climbing, Flying Fox and Cycle. Outdoor games planned makes lotsa injuries to everyone. And I'm the only one who have to take care of them. I become a paramedic, caring the safety box all the time, here and there. Sigh… Exhausted but is fun to tortured them with yellow antiseptic. Haha…. :P

After all injuries being wrapped up, I myself also enjoyed all the activities. Having a great time with youths in the pool. :P

Every outdoor activities end at 6pm, as instructors demand. We went to shower up and be prepared for the finale session of fun. Having a simple skit with story line. The groups have to acted out accordingly. Really have a good laugh when it played.

A tired night also. Went to bed at 11pm. Everyone given exceptional to 12pm as it is a last night for everyone after the laughter and enjoyment in it.

 

Day Four

Guess what? Climbing Broga Hill again. But this time without instructors. Only me, Chee Wai and Sheryn. Wow.. what an energetic people. Haha… We made up to hill and down hill in 20 minutes. Quite fast. But rested a while because Sheryn could not take it. Haha.. Her first time. Me and Chee Wai is just an companion. And I be a guide to them as I went up quite alot :P There is not much people because it was Monday morning and only 1 gang of people when we were in the journey up.

Get to rest and enjoyed scenery before the sun rise. It was a nice weather and is so nice to finally seeing the sun rise. :P Haha.. And we rushed back to campsite for breakfast and morning devotions. Chee Wai thought of tapao some ‘bao’ for the youths. Thanks for Chee Wai for the company to uphill and the ‘bao’. Haha.. Laughed myself when i sapu all ‘bao’ from 2 shops. :P

After devotion, we moved on with the last session of “No Longer A Stranger” where we disclosed who are the guardian angels for everyone. Had a short sharing of how well feel bout them camp. Then lunch.

When lunch is over, felt quite miss Outbac – the instructors (friendly friend) and place. Have to go home liao. A good memories that keeps in heart. Being close with the workers there. And I appreciated the friendliness that they had with me. Hope the friendship bonds won’t died off. XD

 

Hehe… After went home, Am still a sleepy head, but i made promised to go out with friends for movie, “Ninja Assassins” the movie is great. Hehe… Going out full throttle with energy with friends to enjoy the movie. Reach home at 11pm. Zzzz after that……

did some one try to hack my password…

strange.. i guess there is..

all i want for Christmas is Bearbrick toy..

Well is all listed in my wish list as well…:P

moon

the sky is so bright at night. moon is perfect and is so big, round and bright.

just love it.

Listening and Doing

^{James 1 : 19}My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, ²⁰for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. ²¹Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.

²²Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. ²³Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror ²⁴and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. ²⁵But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.

²⁶If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. ²⁷Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

Kid Holiday

Kinda joyful to have a good holiday with kids. surrounded with joy. Less stress, less work. Is mostly rest time and preparations for Christmas Time.

Went to swimming a week before.

As today, decorating the Christmas Tree and preparing art craft for children to do invitation to the parents to informing for Christmas Party. Bringing them out for McD. Everyone happy and have fun. Tv, play time, chit chat.

More to go on coming days and weeks.

It was meant to be. To hurt you. To help letting go. To the goodness of your future.
Whatever it is, things need to have sacrifice when you really need to do a things which put more effort. Any how and then, is part of plan. You can’t have all things to be done at the same time.
This is life. Whatever been offered, it will been taking back one day.
Is more like life and death. God offer you your life, it will soon be taken up back. Better heaven, bad hell. No one knows. Is a must.
So just be it. And I’ll accept everything for sure.
What is owe, more, less, extra, or whatever else left on this world, i will just forget bout it. As i can’t bring it to heaven or hell. And i won’t regret of what i do, what have been done, not done, as i did no wrong to myself and to God. Stated clearly in my life on what i should do as an adult in adults life.

For the Fruit of the Spirit is in control in my life.

Psalm 119:6
Then I would not be put to shame when I consider all your commands.

Proverbs 8:13
To fear the Lord is to hate evil; I hate pride and arrogance, evil behaviour and perverse speech.

p/s: you will understand once you see more clearly of the world.

4th KLGB OutBac Broga Camp

just came back from OutBac Broga camp together with 4th KL girls’ Brigade.

The most happiest time is have quite a lot of fun there as in, obstacle race with blind folded, kayak-ing, rock climbing, flying fox and cycling and exciting was hill climbing.

 

The OutBac is the place which managed by AOG. Quite a new and successful.

 

The most painful things that happen there was bite by some insects which look like mosquitoes but the outcome of the biting was so big. It look likes sand flies mark. Kinda itchy… Wanting and Tempting to scratch it.

 

The most torturing things that happen is hill climbing. Which we need to walk half an hour out to the hill. Then uphill, downhill, and walk back to the campsite. ARGH!!!! If known, we will drive there. Sigh… Have to help the needy ones as in Captain Prisca as her injured leg have not yet heal. Encourage people uphill and downhill. But have fun also with the instructors.

 

Thanks to Joshua, Eve, Richard, Cecelia, and Tan Chee Keong and most of all the person who provide the place for us is Dr Yap.

Haha… i self proclaim them as koko and jiejie because they look more mature than me. But really sorry that I made it a joke. Because in fact I’m much more older than you all.

 

I’m sure return to the hill peak.

car wash

Having another boring day as usual in aunty Christine place. But today i made a mind to ask some youngster to wash the car for me. That is Calvin and Joe.

 

Well, there is only 2 young adults boys around and they wanted to wash cars for me as they been through a boring day as well.

 

Having some crazy joke, time, critics, and etc with them. Can’t imagine they worked hard to get their rewards that is the mcD ice cream cost just a few bucks.

 

Worth it… :P

 

But till the last, I'm washing back the car, as i know their skills and they cant wash clean. :)

But I'm glad as i washed the last car for so long (around 2 years??) 

My Wishlist

End of the year is coming... And is time for Ho ho ho....

My birthday, Christmas, New Year.... Wow... in 1 months as usual, fills up all my time. ^.^

Here it goes. It will be my check list until next year. There is a lot of times to fulfil it.

1) A Digital Camera

Had been eye on Sony newest camera that is TX-1. Price is RM 1499.

For more info, check it in www.sonystyle.com.my

Of course colour that im choosing is not pink.  :P

 

2) A Handphone

i been using my hp for the past 4-5years? Quite a good memorable hp which comes from my friend. A friend that helps a lot. The model is Nokia 3120. Wow.. Old right? Pathetic to me cause i don't plan to buy new one in past. But now, i wanna change to a new hp with camera, coloured, good features. Eg: Iphone. Haha... So big dream when after so many years. But besides Ipone, others still can. Wanting to get Nokia Classic 6700 with cheap and good features. But most important is handy. I need 2 hp....!!!!

 

3)  A Watch

Fossil? Swatch? Or etc?? I don't mind. As long as it suits me.

 

4) A Holiday

Till the year end, is always days where I'm really free. Hoping to find a place which I can relax. Going alone is a good idea, but going with a friend as a companion is much more better.

 

5) A Jeans

Levi’s?

 

6) A Sweater

From Topshop or Pull N Bear?

Hehe... Girls favourites.

 

7) A Car

Last but not least, I know I won't get it. Until a day where God can really see me through in it. But I'm happy with what i have now that is transport free driving around with mum's car, taking public transport if i have to.

Sick

Lol.. Couldn't believe it that my mum n lil sis is sick at home. What a day for them.

Sis start to sick from tues onwards till today and mum just get started by yesterday... Can really see that mum is not feeling right when she wore her pyjamas and lying on sofa without any sounds.

Oh well, i have to be strong to take care for both of them. As they really need someone who can pack food or in medicine wise. (Which i already did)  :)

found out this is a very good website for Christian.

 

http://www.jameslau88.com/

 

N i dislike men that are so stubborn, self seeking, ego, n even useless..

Make me wanna strangle them alive. :P

 

Try Be Holy and Pleasing to God.

His love is always with you, His promises are true, and when we give Him all our cares you know He will see us through.

 

When the road you're travelling on seems difficult at best. Just remember I'm here  praying and God will do the rest..

Letter by someone whom precious

Hi. How are you? Kong here. When you receive this letter it would be few days since I’m gone. Well I don’t know if I will really die. The doctor told me my chance of getting better is very slim. I might just be in coma if I’m lucky. But if I’m not strong enough I wouldn’t be able to make it. I know it’s not right that I tell you this in a letter. But I just can’t face it if I tell you face to face. I can’t take the emotion that I might have at that time. And for the first time in my life I was afraid to die. I’m really sorry that you could only know about this after so long. Believe me, this is not the way I want it to be. I don’t have any choice. There’s so little time for me to do so many things that I haven’t done yet. And I don’t want you to see how I’m suffering so I thought it would be enough that I write you a letter. It’s a bit long though. But I hope you would read till the end because I’m letting you know what happened in my life in this letter. And how I became the person I am today. I don’t know if I will ever get the chance to tell you about this, so I might as well tell you everything in this letter.

Before this, I always thought that there was no use for me to be living. I’m all alone in this god damn corrupted world. And I didn’t fear death, not even a tiny bit. The day my family died, my world changed forever. Everyday is like a crawl to me. I struggle to go through everyday. Yes, my girl friend is still with me at that point of time. But losing your entire family member in just a day is too hard, especially when you’re still a schooling teenager. My girlfriend has been very supportive to me. And I’m glad that at least I still have her with me. Together with her sister, they tried everything to cheer me up, to make me forget the past and go on. For a moment, it worked. Until the day we found out that my girlfriend has cancer. It’s hard to describe my feelings at that time. It’s like I so painstakingly took the broken pieces, put them together, only to be broken again in the end. For the second time, I went blank. I really didn’t know what to do. It’s already a final stage cancer. And I’m sure you know what does that mean. She doesn’t have any chance of survival at all. I didn’t want to accept it and I bring her to places that I think could help her. I seek help from my uncles, find article online on what could be done and I brought her to the temple to pray. There is not a day when I could sleep in peace. I was constantly worried about her. She told me not to worry. She would be fine. And she was grateful that I am doing all these for her. She said that she is fortunate enough that I’m by her side during the times when she needed me most. I know she has no more hope to go on living. If she could she would just want to give up at that moment. I insisted that she continue fighting it. She’s suffering and I was selfish enough not to let her go. I just want to keep her with me. Then one day, when I was out, she left and wrote me a letter saying that she went to visit her parents. I didn’t think anything about it so I waited for her. Until a few days later, I got a call saying she passed away. It was just the same way when my family died. I was angry at her. I was angry that she was selfish to just leave me alone this way, leaving without saying goodbye. Just like how my family did. All of them left me without saying goodbye. Everyone just leave me alone in a sudden, without giving me chance to say anything to them. I got really depressed. I isolated myself from everyone. I kept to myself. Until one day when I decided that it’s too hard for me to go on alone, I took a bottle of sleeping pills. I wanted to just die. It’s a living hell. But I didn’t succeed. Ling got me to the hospital. When I got better and went home, she cried for a few days. I realized at that time that I was being a very selfish person. I know the feeling of being left behind without getting to say goodbye. I didn’t want Ling to go through that. So I decided that I would just go on for her. And to forget the past I kept myself busy with work. When there is no work to be done, I would just go to the gym. Although I decide to keep to myself, I’m still telling Ling about my stuff. I treated her like my real sister. To me, no one would care except Ling. No one would ever want to know what happened in my life. By now, people would think I’m just a stuck up person. Not bothering about anything other than myself. But I didn’t care. They have their life and I have my own. And it’s up to me to decide how I want to live mine. I took the wrong one. I chose to live mine in depression, thinking about the past and not letting go. Pretending that nothing changed and that everyone is still around me. I built a barrier between me and the outside world. I became a quiet person, staying at home alone most of the time and not wanting anyone to get into my house. I just wanted peace in my house. But I have been wrong all these while.

While I’m turning into a sulking teenager, my friend, the one I asked you to add in msn, stayed with me and tried to make me into a better person. Of course, I refused all of it. I kept saying she wouldn’t understand what I went through. But she didn’t give up. Then she told me about herself. She told me she lost her first best friend right after SPM. Her friend had nose cancer and told her that she wants to end the friendship. She was depressed. That was the first person she was really close with. She told me that her friend betrayed her trust. And that her friend didn’t trust her enough to stay with her, going through it together. Her friend just left her, not even letting her try to help her. She was heart broken. Her friend survived, but things were never the same anymore. They never got back to be friends. The hurt was too deep. Then in college, she got to know a girl in orientation, and they became good friends. They got really close. So my friend thought that she wouldn’t be alone anymore. She was really happy when she found a girl that could be her best friend. Everything went well until recently, they had a big misunderstanding. Their relationship was getting further apart, and now, they have nothing to say between them anymore. This is the second time this happened to her. So, I thought I would try to comfort her by staying with her. I said, “Hey no worries. I’m still here and I’ll never leave you. You have anything you can tell me. Your secrets are all safe with me.” She told me she appreciated that but it’s different with being a boy. Then I told her about my cancer. Of course, she’s sad that she is going to lose yet another friend. But she didn’t show it out. When I’m gone, she would again be alone, no one for her to tell her things to. That’s why I asked you to add her and make friends with her. I thought that when I’m not with her anymore, she would have you to talk to. I just hope that you two can be friends. Then, she won’t really feel the loss of me. I know I can’t keep the promise of being there for her when she needed me. So I thought that at least you could do it for me.

Then there was the time when I got to know you. I thought you were just like the other online players I met. It’s just in the game between us. That’s what I thought at first. But we got close talking in MSN. Yeah, we lost contact once, but then we got back to each other recently. I saw that you really cared. For the first time, I was happy to have met someone I can trust online. But the time I knew you was too late. I have only few months left. I thought of not telling you know at all about this. When I am gone, maybe you would forget me soon enough. I couldn’t do it though. You sincerely treated me as your brother. Remember I asked you once about why you cared so much for me even though you don’t know who I am, what my past is and what life I am living? Then you said that care doesn’t have to have a reason. I was really thankful that you would say that. Before this, I never thought that anyone other than Ling and Yuen Zhan cared for me. But you proved me wrong. You cared and you trusted me. And I did the same too. I thought it would be unfair if I just left you hanging not knowing anything when one day I don’t go online anymore. So I thought it would be best if I told you about it. At least when you don’t see me online anymore, you would know one of the reasons why. The time I told you, it’s already at its final stage. You told me you have ways to help me. And when I refused, you got mad. I understand why. When my girlfriend refuses I got angry too. I was angry that she gives up easily without trying. But she tried her best. She fought it. She’s just not strong enough. When I know I have the same thing, I fought it. Ling and my friend helped me. It’s just too strong for me. I can’t do it. I tried lots of ways. It’s not working at all. I went for check up regularly, took my medicine and lived a healthy lifestyle. Nothing helped. You remember the day you said you wanted to come to my house and just wanted me to sit and do nothing? I said I can’t because I don’t have much time left to be sitting around doing nothing. I went for check up few days ago. And the doctor said not much time. So I don’t want to try anything anymore. It’s just going to waste everyone’s time. You said I give up without fighting. And I just stayed on the ground. That’s not true you know. It’s not that I give up without fighting. I fought it for 2 years now. I seek all the help I could find. Although I refuse to meet my friend anymore, she still talked to me online and encouraged me to do my best and not to give up. And there’s Ling. She doesn’t know about this but she has been as supportive too. She cared for me. And I told myself I have to go on living to take care of her. She has had enough pain with her sister’s death, so I don’t want to add another one to her. It’s been painful enough. Although she doesn’t show it but I know inside her she misses her sister a lot just like how I missed my family. And I know that at some point she wished that she could be with her sister. I promised her that I will not leave her alone. Never will. But I’m about to break the promise in a few days time. And it’s not true that I torture myself living my life full of sadness and regrets. I did live my life to the fullest. You know the reason I like going to Pahang? It’s because when I got beaten up my sister would be there to wash my wounds. So I keep going back there hoping that one day when I got beaten badly enough my sister would appear in front of me again. Heh…I know its stupid. The time I told you I’m going to Pahang was the last time I would be there. I just wanted one last try. I know she will never come back but I just want to prove it to myself one last time.

The reason I don’t want to meet you personally is because I know it’s hard to let go of a person once you know them and meet them. I went through this. I didn’t want to let go of my girlfriend. It’s really very hard to let go once you know how that person look like. That’s why I prefer chatting with you guys online. It’s the same with my friend. I don’t want her to get too close with me. It will hurt her more when one day I’m gone and there is no one to be there for her anymore. When my girlfriend passed away, I missed her presence each day. I wished that one day she would come back and be by my side. It took really long for me to let go of her. That’s why I didn’t want to go and meet you. And talking to you is just as bad. On the phone I mean. So I thought chatting online is the best. You won’t get to know me personally and it would be easier for you to forget. I don’t know what you will feel after reading this letter. Maybe you would begin to hate me. Hate me for being so selfish. But I just don’t want another person to go through what I went through. I know you told me once you want to go through this with me and you wanted to be there for me. I didn’t want you to not because I don’t want to. It’s because there is not enough time for you to do so. The time you will be with me might be so short that you can’t believe this is happening. I don’t know. Maybe you don’t feel that way but I do. When the time you spent with someone is so short yet you enjoyed it, you would find it harder to let go of that person. That’s my perception of things. I enjoyed chatting with you online and I would really like to hang out with you one day. Yet, I know that the time for us to do things together would be so short that it would be over before we ourselves know it. I hope you understand me. I don’t want another person to grieve over me. I would already be breaking a lot of promises. I know I would break promises I made to you too. I told you I promise you that I would meet you one day. Now I don’t think that one day will come. I hope I get the chance but I don’t think I ever would. I wish there would be miracle but as you know, miracle happens only one in a million. And that one miracle that happens would certainly not be on me. So I’m really sorry for this. I promised you and gave you false hope. You told me you trust me. I think by now your trust to me would already be gone. But please trust me that I didn’t mean it to be this way. It pained me to think what you all have to go through. I would be hurting Ling, Yuen Zhan and you. Trust me; if I could I would never have wanted to hurt the 3 of you. You all mean a lot to me. Although the time I get to know you is just short, but I want you to know that you really made my life better. You did give me back some of the hope and you show me that someone out there does care. And life is not all that bad. Thanks to you I’m more cheerful lately.

You do remember that once I told you that all I want from you is just a few days right. It’s because in a few days time my system would be completely down. I’m already very weak now. I would need to stay in the hospital and go through observations. So before I lose everything I just wanted to talk to you. Then again, as usual things didn’t work out the way I wanted it to. You got mad, angry and you treated me in a cold manner. I was sad but maybe it would be better this way. At least you have a reason to hate me. If we meet under different circumstances maybe things will turn out differently. I’m sorry we met this way. And I finally know the meaning of not making a girl angry. It sure is hard to talk to her when she’s angry. Haha…Tough.

I volunteered myself to test for a new drug. Well it might work and it might not. But I’m not about to give out without a fight. If luck is on my side maybe I would survive. So if one day, after a few years you got a call from me, I hope you do remember me. Haha…That’s a too big hope. I do want to come out alive from the hospital. I hope there are no complications though. It will make things easier for me. I don’t know if you will ever see Ling anymore. I’ve arranged for her to go back to stay in Sabah. I’m just telling you so that you know. You said being a sister means I must tell you everything, if not no use being my sister. Don’t worry I promised you I won’t give up without a fight. You can be sure that I won’t.

As for where I will be, no one will know where. I don’t want anyone to know. I’m trying to make things easier for everyone. I know the pain of losing someone without being able to tell them how you feel. And I’m doing exactly that now. But I have to. I’m really sorry to you. I really am. I’m not good with words so I hope you don’t mind the way this letter turned out to be. And I hope I’m not being too emotional in this letter. Haha…Well until we meet again. Take care. I will miss you. Love you too.

From : Ng Meng Kong

28-4-2006

 

*Can you imagine, how cruel is this world? To took away someone who are precious? So, cherish everyone who is at your side.. let them know how much you cares for them.

Concert 2009

Very tired…

 

The whole week has been rushed here and there. Things to be prepared. Late sleep. Tiredness of getting things done. Clothes, party packs, shoes, hairs, make ups…..

 

wow.. Just imagining, i’m a teacher needed to help kids out with all these things and preparation of the TAC (the slide shows, songs, videos and etc.) Sigh…

 

Some people said, is a easy job for you because u just control the sounds, click here and there and not looking after the kids. But they don’t know how much pressure that really happening when the projector could not even function well, how much i have to present it out in the slide show. Is all by my creativity mind to look for things to be put on screen to view by the parents by not letting them down. Meanwhile, “we” are busy controlling the kids behind the scenes seeing how they behaves and hardly control.

 

Oh well, each one of us have work to do. I don’t put the blame on them. As i know it is God love who make me to work willingly for this ministry of educating kids. I might young, and it proves me right when God asked me in this ministry to served.

 

I give thanks to God who prepared the road for me to walk in this week. Though the concert preparation is tiring, but after the whole year stretch, is worth more while when seeing my kids been growing up very well with obedient heart.

 

XD

Spender

Big shopping for myself today.

Haha… Don’t know which lightning strikes me that I have decided to shops. XD

Kinda happy and joyful that i really bought things not even more than 5 times a year. Is just a little part of the shops, but i felt satisfied. And spend quite a big amount of money on it.

 

Here are the money i spent for today:

Food ( Sakae Sushi)                            -   RM  20.80

         ( Milk )                                       -   RM    4.60

Bag                                                     -    RM  19.90

Padini ( Shoes )                                  -    RM  53.00

           ( Clothes )                               -    RM  49.00

Cotton on (Clothes)for 3 pieces  :P   -    RM157.00

Watson (Toothbrush)                         – RM 29.90

 

WOW…. Come to the total of RM 334.20.

Sob sob.. don’t realise. I spend so much… Never mind… Is already a year… Is good to spend some money for my own BB day and Christmas coming.

 

but is also an tiring day after walking here and there in Pavilion and in Sg. Wang.

Quite worth it la, though not much time to spend on shop cause closed shop… >.<

 

Will spend some more after kid’s concert. On Dec?

Hehehe…

 

Holly Jolly…~~~~

Hungry…

Empty stomach really make a person roused. As in, think of a lot of foods. Big temptation of having fried chicken, sushi, pizza, mc Donald, and etc.

cant really stop thinking of it. :P

well it strikes me yesterday around dinner time, where i reach home late due to rain and traffic. Throughout the whole journey when I'm home, waiting for car to lrt, lrt trains and even buses, I'm just thinking about food. Knowing at home, there will be a simple dinner for me (i don’t know what mum’s cook), i still hunger to think of what food i want to eat when the food is not suitable for me to eat. :P

When the time i reach home, i quickly went for my dinner, mum do cook rice, but I'm thinking of maggi mee. I did mix some rice into the maggi soup and serve it as a dinner together with it. In total, i ate maggi mee, rice+maggi soup, and mum’s salted chicken. Quite nice dinner. At least I'm satisfying with it.

 

Thank God for it.

OMG!!!

 

How could i ever do this?

Crying throughout the whole movie? SO amazing touching…

I can’t even stop my tears. How could it be?

My first ever movie made me such feelings.

 

Pondering, how can it be….

Wondering, when is going be so romantic in my life….

Wishing, such a guy could make me cry so much of love because of him….

 

WOW!!!

 

The movie title was “P.S. I Love You” Year 2007

 

Thanks Amelia for copying this movie for me…

Draw by my student

ME!!

by Lai Soon Onn. 27th October 2009

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzSK9tOERNk&feature=player_embedded

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_B1a5uDp6g&feature=player_embedded

n lotsa more.. search it yourself. is cool :)

Loving you is was not an option

But is a MUST?

[ because there have been no option for u, just do it. Love me full hearted-ly.] Self praise...


source from Edmund MSN

Cleo Hot Reads

If any of u aware that Cleo this month have 2 interesting topic that interested me.

To those who bought CLEO please flip to pages 111 and 123 both by Stephanie Osfield.

She might be an interesting writer who really wrote what’s girls’ mind thinking. That is good because i think she voice out mostly what girl wanna say or think.

 

Alright lets go to page 111, titled “Is it time to dump him?”.

When you read bout this title, is it time to dump him?, the first impression you will think is “Girl’s is in control?” or “What the crap of all this?” Before we start any here, lets see what’s her subtitle wrote.

 

1) He is inconsiderate – Rarely bothers to consider you or your feelings, then it’s likely he’s not going to change.

2) Commitment is a dirty word – He thinks you’re great but not ready for marriage.

3) He is super critical – Everything you do seems to rub him up the wrong way. (means complaining)

4) You’re a celibate couple - Been together for a long time and libidos slow down.

5) He’s obsessed by you – He calls and text on you on every nanosecond by feeling suffocated.

6) You’re out of the loop – He doesn’t want to share as if he is not in a relationship.

7) You can’t get him off the couch – Stick close at home.

 

This is all bout woman should dump a man and here is also a guide telling “is he about to dump you?”

 

Here is also another one from pg 123 title “I was divorced in my 20s”.

 

There been a lot of my friends getting into marriage life. I do felt happy for them. And Congrats for them. But come to this topic, i realise there is few reason to believe.

 

1) I was young and impulse. Too early to make a choice or marry someone leaving an incredible weight off on shoulders.

2) We had different ideas about marriage. Devoted too much time for each others and making it a difficult time to spend on personal work.

3) I married to keep others happy. WTF! Just to keep him happy?

 

Better buy a book of it if you think is interested you and for more details. :)

Sunday

Is indeed a good sunday which i experience.

Early morning rain.
In the car full of Christian songs and praises.
Sunday Service with a good message.
Ended early.
Short talks with P. Soo Ling.
Seeing dudes playing monopoly deal cards.
Lunch suffer a bit, waiting for char siew to be done.
Home alone to sleep with a quiet mode. Nice!
Edmund's first round end, too bad but won plate.
Out with Aik Wei from Penang.
Home.

But out of everything, from talks with P. Soo Ling, what did God want to teach me throughout the whole life is "Try to be understanding, caring, gently, and don't be too stubborn but firm."

I guess God want to teach me long time ago this lesson. My mind don't wanna accept it, keep on rejecting it and finally uses P. Soo Ling to talk to me. God is at works in my life. And i truly surrender my life to Him, wanting Him to change me to become a better woman. ^.^

Over

Over means over.
Given chances,
don't wanna appreciate (human attitude?)
fed up...

Relieves

Feeling relieve after teaching a kid named Joe Chan.

LOL…

there were quite a lot of Joe in Aunt Christine house. Eg: Joe Chan, Joe Kam, even coming Joe Loon who appear sometimes. (in seminary STM)

Well.. i did teach him numbers because aunt Christine could not handle him on counting. I took my effort to do the best for him n i’m his pre-number teacher in the kindie. What a swt…

 

A kid who can’t read out the number correctly after 2 years in kindie. What a sigh…

He is quite a joker when he start opening his mouth and talk about other business better then talk things in the school. He can make up story like those HK Movie kids when they act. He is one of those selected actor who can talk well. Hahaha…

 

Actually is quite a headache to teach him, because he is those type who needs companion to sit beside him only he will start to do. Whenever, I’m or Aunt Christine not sitting beside him, he start to play and having fantasy dream in his mind. I also need to focus on him. What an eyesore.

But lucky today, he is quite obedient to do his work well. Although he might not finish up early, he ‘at least’ know how to do addition, subtraction, and clock. Is quite hard for him to do counting because he always miss out his “13” become “30”. The pronouns of him make him failed.

 

But is a good result seeing him improve. XD

Paper

Seeing many laughing news from the newspaper.

EG:

TVs and porn discs seized from prison

 

She: He raped me; He: She bit me

 

Sex lessons from the Internet

 

Thinking of divorce? Go for a honeymoon

 

What to do..?? It is full of entertainment. But is not in entertainment news exactly. :P

 

Log on to www.dailychilli.com for more info.

She: He raped me; He: She bit me

She: He raped me; He: She bit me

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faithful~~~~!

imagining how faithful you are when you use your gadgets, bags, accessories, cars n etc.

 

I can name you some i have been faithful in gadgets.

1) my nokia phone

2) my sim card number

3) ipod

 

it does not belong to me at first. but it came to me for free..

 

how bout u??

Fear vs. Trust

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

1 John 4:18

All kinds of fears plague women in today’s world. Some of the major ones they share with us are:

 

* fear of being alone

* fear of the dark

* fear of abandonment

* fear of failure

* fear of disapproval or ridicule

* fear of financial lack

* fear of injury or violence

* fear of cancer or disabling sickness

* fear of suffering and pain

* fear of death

* fear of losing a relationship

* fear of losing independence

* fear of the future

 

Fear can beneficial when it warns us of impending danger, but when taken to extremes, and coupled with worry, it quickly becomes a heavy bondage.

Cruel

am very cruel doing things that people do to me.
 Deleting FB means deleting part of your life. N i like it, because u did to my life before.
Thanks for it. I appreciate your effort in it. It means so much for me. As it means to u.
 Act according to mood swing or just couldn't control will make u more suffer in the future.
Better be sorry before you start to do something that is going to hurt people.

"How you treat people is how people treat you."

Pls pray for the victims in padang, Indo.

They been thru the worse. is been 2 days for it. 7.6 magnitude of earthquake.

Mayb God has His plan. Or things to be done on this world soon. Lets pray for them. And do ask God to do His will.

Mooncake festive Celebration

Having celebration in Aunt Christine home. Quite a nice one with the kids, after rushing for their school homework, then bring them out, for a walk bringing latern. :)

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Online Dating Tip

Online Dating Tip # 1

Use an alluring photo of yourself with a somewhat sexy undertone in your pictures. This will get more people to read your profile. Think of it as your selling your image to other singles and you need to present a great sales pitch.

 

Online Dating Tip # 2

Look at the facial expression. Look at the smile and reaction of the person getting their picture taken and if it says this is a confident person. You want to seek out people who are strong individuals, full of character and have confidence to take pictures of themselves.

 

Smilling is important..

 

Online Dating Tip # 3

Detailed Inspection. Does the person go to the trouble of dressing up to look good for the occasion or does it look like they just rolled out of bed? Look at the fashion sense, is this someone you can see yourself with at an event?

 

Get inspiration from the star newspaper 30 September 2009, a girl wrote how she needs to approve date with form from different guy at day and night time.

The House

http://ryejoe.ruumz.com/15Malaysia/view_video.aspx?fm_id=13&id=43560&UserId=2944

 

The House.

An Indian boy is asked to build a model of his house at school. A tale on the social economic plight faced by many Indian Malaysians.

 

* It was truly a sad story.

Message

School reopen...

Today is the school reopen. Is kinda exciting waiting to see those kids to be notti, running around, climb here and there even don't listen.

But is also a surprise when the first period entering 4 Love, everyone was so good. No need for scream or asking them to sit down on floor, they already automatically know what they should do. Then i began calling their names to check and measure the size of the concert clothes. They are willing to sit down in the class more than 45 minutes quietly. Really a surprise for first day, expected the opposite view. :P And i gave each one of them a ink stamp on their hand.

Then the second period, i went into 5 Patience. Was expected to be noisy, and those notti stuff from them. But who knows, it turns out the opposite way also. I could barrely hear a single voice from them when i wrote some exercise on the whiteboard. Haha... Here goes the noisiest class to be in peace.

3rd period, i end up in 5 Joy, with the different expectation that they would be the first and the second class i entered. But who knows, i was wrong. But gladly, i don't scream or even shout. They still can listen. Just a bit noisy at the back of the class, as they don't feel right of each other between friends.

Everything was so smooths until the last period, where i nearly burst out in anger because of 6 years old kids can't even listen to instruction. Sigh......... But never mind, they are still brilliant enough to know when I'm angry. :P

Back to Auntie Christine place....

All was so in peace. Daniel, Yun You, and Carmen did their homework fast enough and even could handle the things that i teach. (Rearrange the words in Bahasa). Hehe... Days ended up in peacefully. As i don't really have to shout. Their willing heart of listen makes me happy. No problem teaching Jet, and Hui San too...
But Joe is a bit problematic guy which handle by auntie Christine, that make her whack him up. Sorry for him. But all goes well at the end.


XD

Confused

What do you exactly want now?

Been turning me round and round. Keep on saying things that is so different from time to time.

It makes me headache and frust of what should i do.

To keep things simple, i choose to keep myself quiet. And just act, according to what you wish the last before i deleted you. Things will get better, i wished.

Things changed...

Within months, humans, life, environment, society, world changed...

Is unbelievable...

We tend to look back at things that are sweet and easy to remember such as memories...

But life still goes on...

Here... Joshua, Mun Kit, Phui Leng and etc.
Thanks for updating me your life....

To realize

To realize The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
 
To realize The value of ten years: 
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize The value of nine months: 
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize The value of one month: 
Ask a mother 
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize The value of one hour: 
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident... 

To realize The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one. 

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special. 

To realize the value of a friend: 
Lose one.

Forgive and Forget

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

lt of things have been happening.

BIG or small all comes up in a month time.

Whatever it is, I been thru alot of trouble aka (evil). Sigh....!!!
Headache for me..................... >.<
I don't hope it to happen anymore in my life. Can i just pass on?



Erm...

And what a surprisingly, yesterday was Wong Yee Li big day. What big? Is her Wedding Day.
Guess up the bridegroom? Ryan Loi...

Wahahaahahahhaa..... couldn't believe it. But what to do? They work under the same sun, the same desire and when even pak toh-ing they really surprise me.

Yee Li is like my big sister where she really a good spiritual girl who really work hard in the her life. I so call adore her attitude. And for Ah Loi, he is kinda joky guy that makes the world laugh. :P

Is ok... :) wish them a Happy WEDDING DAY and loving each other till the last breath on the earth. So Sweet seeing them in church wedding too... :)

Digi.net had a fail...

is too slow to work in home with 14 floors on top.

DELICIOUS!!!!

Yummy!! So long didn't eat this kind meal.

It's most satisfying..

:)

p/s : cook myself.. :P bacon by edmund

LIfe with no net

How it is?

I been through. Not bad. Boring?? Okok le...
Only if u have things to do it will be okay. ;)

Now life come back with net with DIGI.NET

hahahha....

Long time

It's been a long time since i never log into blog and write blog. Miss the bloggers..

Is a joy every Sunday woke up, and seeing someone so exciting and urging me going to church.
and it is edmund. He is so happy every sunday saying what time it is? will we be late?

Those feeling letting me know, he is hunger. For what? (in Church? or in seeing God?) I guess the answer is God. Is really a joy, seeing someone who is not a Christian but so willingly and taking so much effort in it..

Pray that he will change and will follow Christ soon one day... ^.^

Love Story

Love Story lyrics
Songwriters: Swift, Taylor Alison; We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Care and concern

Now, u guys could have see what happen to me and my family.

I'm once again, got screw up in the family. A true tragic...

I am bitten up by my own dad after such a long adults life. It was since below 12years old, he never hit on me. But who knows, what cause it, what trouble it, my attitude, my behavior, or his?

I'm not quite for sure. But all i know, it happens in the house where only 3 person in the house. That is my aunt, dad and me. My aunt don't even try to stop my dad for his action. Just being so "Lucky" to be the one who become a victim in the house. In that sense, i could say, i save my elder sister (Alister) or even younger sister (Sheryn) for being the first victim after in adults age.

Did he got mental problem? or whatsoever? I don't wanna judge and think about it.

What i know, when things or problems happen, it happen from both sides. It also depending on how to control your temper.

And lucky to say, I got Edmund by my side to support me. He be the one who take care of me when this accident happen. Thanks also to mum. She receive my called, and rush over to SAVE me.. Also to people who care and concern, Aunt Connie, Aunt Christine, Alister, Christine and people who knows bout this happening.

And for my hatred, I know i'm not suppose to be. Just wanna say thank you for being my dad after so long till last year Father's Day and now it happen such a thing like this, i couldn't bear it anymore to say, I don't want to be your daughter anymore. I wish i could live freely without you. (All this is a soft word part, for hard word) FUCK U LA!!!

Sorry to make u guys worried....

Like mother like daughter

Some people said, "Like Father Like Son". Means u react exact as your father.

But for me, I react like what my mum. I felt i have her characteristic even though i met her not so often as in once a year or mayb more, like 3 times a year???

When we met up today, i realise I begin more like her. It was so much thinking, so much things we been through that we known.

Hard to describe...

But title explained all... XD

Love u mum.

Another person who is more like me... ( That's the reason i like u??) Hehehe....

having a look on my sweet heart album picture. He is so cute when he is young!!! OM Gosh!!!

It look exactly the same as he is now. Cool... But he like to laugh when he is young. So sweet... ;)

car wash

Action speak louder then words.

Yeap..!! is true.. :)

Today, around 7pm, Edmund and I, went to wash car. It was a long story bout the car. I think i could say, it is the dirtiest car i sat in?? am i? or venom's car? or etc....??? forgotten bout it. But I'm okay with its condition of being dirty. It is not like puddle of mud everywhere or rats or bugs n the car. It is cleaner then the other cars which have small little creature inside the car.

Well, since i sat on the car, i don't really complain much. But when it comes to everyday, i realize it was dirty inside. The carpet was full of lil stones, sands, etc. Of course it is cause by me. Of course i'm the only one who sat there. I complained for around, 2 weeks?? I guess is around that time.

And only today, i could have asked him and made him had his decision to wash his car in his area, Kepong. It was definate fast. We reach at 7.10pm and finished at 7.14pm (not including vacuum).
Plus the vacuum, it only around 7.20pm. And it is super duper CHEAP!!! only RM6 for all..

I had a WOW... :)

And here it goes a brand new clean Kenari that drove by my sweet heart. ;)

too much think about sometimes, make u feel lost in the world.

the more u think about it, the more u won't believe in it. It is like an illusion running in your mind, that you couldn't control it at all. It will gives more negatives input more than the positive.

as people said there is always evil and angel on top of your head trying to smack each other, stabbing one another or even fighting just to make sure u think the right things.
It looks like this.




erm.... just be positive....!! think less and work it out. Action is louder then words. Action will let people see and view more changes in u.

holiday

Is my first holiday with someone...

woke up early in the morning. seeing someone. breakfast. and have a stupid plan after breakfast while driving me home. it was going to genting plan.

Well, i just have a sudden mind, after pass by batu caves where he said, " If my car does have good braking system, i would bring u up to genting now". It does shock me when i come out with sudden plan, that we go up with public transport. Em...

just after the thought, Terminal Putra Lrt is just right in front, and we just turn in and check out for tickets. The down part was, there is bus to up but no bus to transport us back to KL. Argh!!!! Wat laa.a...... After a wild thought, we gave up, and head to KLCC for a walk, window shopping. Have a tea time in Starbucks after a great walk. Chat and chat and chat as usual.... Wanting to get to the garden, too baddd..... it was raining. Journey continue to walk in KLCC. After half an hour, we head up back to my house for Makan Time..

Having dinner in Quan Cafe. chat again... Not boring though being with him.. ^.^
Picked up Wendy to tong shui. Hehe...
Chit chat, fellowship with her then head home again.

That how my holiday goes... hehe

Feeling Lucky???

Em.. Having the feeling of being lucky where ever Edmund and I been going. When we reach certain area for foods, drinks or movies, we could find the perfect parking that is just so Right in front of the place we wanna hang out.

Is not just for first or second time, is every time.

Let's put on few experience that happened.

1) Going to yum cha in Old Town, Pandan Indah. As some of u know, that place is always crowded with people and car, but we still manage to park right in front of the shop for few times.

2) Yum cha in Momo Cafe, the same row, area as Old Town, we still manage to find parking just right infront of the Cafe.

3) It just happened 2 hours ago, going to Ajimal Mamak in Sri Petaling after ICU. Having a slow route journey to the place, jammed with cars with double parking, But still we manage to park right infront of our mamak seats.

4) ETC, ETC, n ETC

Haha...!! Wondering who is so lucky charm. Me or Edmund?? Erm.. But we are happy for everything that has happen.


P/S: Imagining he sing praises? He does!!! XD

Likeness + Commons

1) We share same common interest.
2) Easy going person.
3) Same type of person.
4) Auntie Shooky, mention, we both look alike... Wahahha...
5) Don't mind of things that happened.
6) Willing to sacrifice for each other.
7) Care and concern of each other.
8) Above all....
too bad.. He is not Christian.
But is ok...

He is willingly, come to CHURCH!!!

yea..
Praise the Lord

P/S: There still more. Likeness 1, 2, 3 is more then enough for me in the moment of time. Hoping 8 to come. ^^

Someone who made changes in my Life.

~Sweet smile~



Cool looks??

Thanks for letting me know that you could be the one.

Things might be going so fast.
But there is things that happen is so much likeness in us and it does not stop us being together.

Just a short term life, you made me know there is someone who is foolish enough is always be there. And there is you. XD

No matter what's your past life happen, things comes wrong in your way, I won't blame you for what had happen. I will support u from now onwards. Sad, unhappy, happy, cheer, etc, i will be at your side. That's why in FB, we so fast engaged to be recognized to the world that you are the One for me.

Thank you for what had happen for last few weeks. Day and night pass so fast, and same goes with our relationship. I don't mind being talk bad or good from people. The whole thing is, I know what am i doing. ^.^V

Thanks Baby Ed...

Rainbow house (28th February)

Never thought of what is Rainbow house.

A happy place? A place where God put His promises? Or a Rehab?

Is everything there. Is a place for woman, who were addict to drugs, gambles, etc.

I'm so proud of these woman who lives in there. There were great, courage, brave and not even shy to face the world. I'm humbly came to know how they live their life.

It was pain, and suffering, and even in stressed. But seeing their changes in life, it does make me having a happy smile where people will change themselves if they pursue on changing their life. Not by force, but by will. It might not be God's will at first. But when it comes to God, they are willing to be humble to come before Him, and listen to God's word. They are so enthusiastic to know who is Him.

And i'm sure God will forgive their sins, if they does repent.

Here's the link to picture on that day.. http://randy28.multiply.com/photos/album/73

Christianity

There are people who ask me, what is Christianity.

and the answer flash back to what Douglas had told us in ICU meeting. He told us that, when people do ask, u should give a life testimony not more then 20 minutes.

I could not find any resources of how to give my life testimony in 20 minutes...

I could not give an answer. What i replied is "Is a journey with God, where u have to see and look inside me."

Obviously, it won't works. As in people won't seeing or observe your life for so long. But still, i remain with silent. Hoping that, people will see Christ in me, N I'm in Christ.

To make it short, God has made known to me, be sure that, I should BE IMITATORS OF GOD, from last years onwards. Thanks to the PHOS Youth camp. U guys Rock's!!

small option...

but Nevermind. It is a surprise for u all? Erm... Well, just facebook la...
Open up ur mind guys... look properly..!!!

Appreciate

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for
her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her
boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see
everything, including her boyfriend.

Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry
me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too,
and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away silently and later wrote a letter to her saying.
"Just take care of my eyes, dear."



This is how human brain changes when the status changed.

Only few remember what life was before, and who's always been there even
in the most painful situations.

Life is a gift!

Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who
can't speak.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early
to heaven.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one
maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your
face and thank God you're alive and still around.