Ephesians 4:31 (New International Version, ©2011)

31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.

 

 

:) Indeed yes. The Lord has provide me a life that needs to be happy!

wonder y i always get the blame and become victim for people to accuse me. This is so boring…

Granny

today, it makes me feel like going back to the past. Where I think of my grandma, the way she nag me, scold, care, love, giving money, giving food, being independent, and the part telling stories to me. I actually felt quite sad and wanting to cry to see her lying on the bed, emotionless, and cant talk. She is like my source of encouragement  and strength. She really gave me a lot of courage to do things that I want. She is part of supportive.

I somehow remember how she ask me to go to hospital check up for the heart. She don’t even want to disturb the whole family members to accompany her to hospital by requiring people to fetch or dropping her off. She insisted me to go hospital with her alone, using public transport, and cab to reach to hospital. If i’m not mistaken that time I was not less than 15 years old. It was more than 10 years ago. And she probably aged 70++.. She is a good fight. (Yea, according to Suet Yin) How me and her waited in the hospital to take the number for check up. Sometimes, it might ended taking number in the morning but have to return back in the afternoon for it. How silly the hospital is. But grandma always waits patiently. Chatting with people around, with me and nurses, though her bahasa is not good. I still remember how pain she was when the doctor poke her finger or at the arm just to test blood. That time, I felt horrible and sympathy by having those pain. Even my heart was painful to see her being poke that way. But I did ask her, she just said, “is just for a moment.” How awesome is she…

I also remember how she used to told me stories about her own self when I was really young. She told about her life, her love with grandpa, her most golden time when she had a gold teeth. And she is so pretty when she was young.

For now, I only get to be back to visit her when she got sickness. I felt so terrible. But this is all I could do. I couldn’t go and face my idiotic father, who seems never appear before in hospital. Because I never heard his name once when Aunt Mei didn’t mention about his name. But I am just fine and I knew my 2 sis will go and visit her.

I guess, I should go early before dawn tomorrow just to see what I can do. and though is a rush for me, but nothing is much more rusher than my grandma.

confused heart

has receive news that grandma has admitted into hospital due to stroke. But I haven’t got time to visit her yet. Planning tomorrow if it might. But i guess, i couldn’t make it as well… Need to rush to MOE. SIgh…

But thank God that He knows I’m tired, mayb this is the time for me to rest at night. But I felt sorry because I can’t do my best to do all this for the sake of Aunt Connie. It might drag her time to late to submit the SPK update form. But I guess I will try to make my best to finish it up on time though is all typing. Will do my best.

And about grandma, I still dunno if it will be alright for me to go and see her. Sigh… Been praying hard and hoping she will get better. >< Crossing fingers….!!!

Love of God

This is much like the mother of a newborn baby. She has already sacrificed much of her life and personal ambitions to the life of the child before it is ever born, but after the birth the sacrifice continues. Each time the baby cries, the mother is disturbed from much needed sleep. Hours are spent giving often, regular feedings. Messes are cleaned up. Clothes, diapers, sheets and so forth are in the washing machine continually. She hovers over the little baby and gives it a protected environment. Sometimes she is so tired she thinks she will collapse. She loves the baby with a love that she cannot describe in words. But do you know something? That newborn baby does not love her! That’s right….

That baby doesn’t love anybody really…. unless it would be itself. But she begins to work on the problem right away. She coddles, hugs, kisses, rocks, and coos over the baby. She gives it constant attention. And then one day, she is greatly rewarded when she hears it say, “Mommy, I love you.” My friends…. that little short sentence make all the tiring effort seem worthwhile.

Jesus washing feet

a week passed. And I had a great story about Jesus who wash His disciples legs. This is to show how much He loves us, and just to humble himself as a King to serve us by washing our feet. His act remind me of slaves who work for their master.

Serve and you will be serve.

And another story in the bulletin about mother. It was indeed another story which touched my heart deeply because of my past. Rather I could say, I nearly cry. ><

Will publish it tomorrow. As it will be a long day ahead for Monday.

……………

Is ok tamie :)

I'll handle it myself then.

thanks for the advice.

take care.

Tamie, i really hope to meet you.

If you're not a cold heart person, please, grant me this wish, let me meet you and talk with you.

I really need a pair of ear of yours.

There's no one else i could talk with beside you.

Hope you'll call me when to meet up.

Will be waiting for your reply.

Thanks and regards,

Edmud

geez...

why must u explain so much if u're not willing to see me? is becos u still cares for me, i know :)

i said i'm sorry at previous mail about accusing or whatever.

thanks for ur time again

 

Thanks for taking granted on me as in, I reply once, i must always reply u and helping you out as well. I wont help. As u said above, do it la… N summo, always find things to argue when i don reply u or picking up the call. Who am i actually? well, i just thought of myself in your perspective, im just a toy where, u like u dump, u leave, u kick, u scold, and even talk crap.

Well well… i dont want to reply because i could not even bear to see how much u hurt me by ur “Caring” words. Haha… infact, is bullshit from some one who have physcology mental. Oh yea! Get to know your own character first. Thanks for hurt me again with stupid reason u gave yourself. Ask yourself, are u worth to judge or assume or saying other people when u have physcology problem.

All written is just a reminder for such a person like u. Know your wrong and your aim before u start talking about people.

Boasting of tomorrow

James 4 : 13-17

investment advice

A stock market consultant recently suggested, “People should always sell when they have a better place to put their money.” While true, the challenge is recognizing when one place is better than another, which, of course, no one can identify with any level of certainty. I typically respond to this sort of financial advice with a resounding “Duh! No kidding?” It’s like telling investors to buy low and sell high. Please tell us something we don’t already know.

Jesus once gave a crowd of people some fresh “advice.” He said, “If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for My sake, you will save it” (Luke 9:24). I doubt there were few, if any, in the crowd who said. “Well, duh.” Instead, most stood there scratching their heads, thinking, Huh?

Although Jesus drove home this thought on more than one occasion (Matthew 16:25; Luke 17:33), it’s not exactly the kind of advice people hear every day. And while it caused them to stop and think, those who truly heard Him understood He wasn’t talking about holding on to our physical life. The word Jesus used for “life” is the word psyche, which is the Greek word for the soul. He was referring to our inner life and clinging solely to our own efforts and plans to secure it. In essence, Jesus was saying that without Him, joy and meaning will slip through our fingers.

Self-reliance is a poor investment to hold on to because it never works out the way we think it should. And it prevents us from discovering the life our souls crave in a friendship with Jesus and living for His purposes (John 15:15).

What might you be hanging on to that you need to “sell” in order to find your life in Him?

 

From ODJ

want to know the truth?

want to know the truth?
sex

Q : Is using sex to get what I want all that bad?
A : Yes. First of all, sex us not a "strategic move," like in a game. It is so much more. God created sex for a husband and wife. It is a powerful part of their commitment, love and intimacy.
Secondly, sex is way too powerful to "use" to get what you want. Outside of marriage it can easily "backfire" on you, resulting in emotional letdown, guilt, an unwanted pregnancy or many possible disease. For best results - save it for what it was made for!

It is your choice..

• There's a lot of confusion about sex. But God's plan is clear. He made sex for a husband and wife. This is physical union is part of the commitment these two people share.
• God's desire is for you to be pure in every area of your life, including your sexuality.
• If you make the choice to wait to have sex until you are married, you will find that God is in the business of keeping you pure and helping you out when you are tempted. He offers strength and places in your heart the desire to do what's right.
• If you have already had sex outside of marriage, God is in the business of second chances. He offers forgiveness and a fresh start.
• If you have been forced to have sex, God is in business of restoring what has been stollen from you. He offers healing and freedom from the pain of the past.
• Fill up a consent form to remind of your promise to God as a sign of commitment of purity.

this is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. oohhh....

this is the day I receive news that my sister Sheryn is in love and she is with a guy called Terry Chee. 22 years old. same working company with her.. haha.. this is the details that I know. Hoping and wishing her the best in finding a good guy, and best of hope that this guy won't play play with her feeling. >.< sort of like seeing my sister leaving Tim. choi!!! I'm glad! there are lots of things been happening around lately. there are good and bad in every situation. it does lead me to pain and heartache. Joy will be there if I seek it. N I'm happy because the Lord is always be with me where ever I go. He won't hurts me! Galatian 3:12-16 forgetting what lies behind and strife forwards to the goal which God had called me to heavenward. Hope I can do it!! >.< I'm in pain

u are just a friend

first post 2011

This is the first post of my 2011. NY has pass by, and people been making resolutions to the things that can't be made or fulfill. But I have not been touch on my resolution yet because I did make one during December.

The third day of NY is a school start day as well. Seeing all bipedal and even teenager in Lrt, how joyful it is goin to school especially those who just move on to form 1. I do see my sister as well as she wore on her first secondary school uniform. Come to think of it, it is also the first day which I don't need to go back to house 20.
Em... what to do now? income decrease Liao. sigh!! But will go and look for job later. don't worry because God will provide a way.
TO come to think of it, I didn't felt any happiness during NY. Due back to the same thig happen again. I really wonder why. It is like a time bomb machine that explode anytime. If een is not that case, it really make me sad each and every time he said something which judge me, a promise not fulfill, say for the sake of saying - didn't think before wanting to say. it really make me look like an idiot who have to follow what he try to say and do towards me. what am I? u want a happy relationship, it is based on two person happiness. But u didn't see what my heart wants but u keep on persist what you want. Till make me like an stupid foolish people who have to tolerate you because u got sickness? NO! I don't even wanna tolerate anymore because u are just being selfish on your own and did not think of what your friend feelings. Good to you because u screw up everything.

Ephesians 5:1-10