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Old things got rusty, dusty, and spoilt. Is the same as love. Old love seems to fade away when there is any good take carer, or misuse. When ever is being dump, ignored, and placed aside, is like not being appreciated. This is the feeling that I have. Trying much to save my self from beyond this is happening, but I know I can't. Eventually new things comes in life again when old was being abandoned. It was not I who abandon the old, it is I'm the old thing. I don't really feel I'm being appreciated anymore. How could this be? Am I such like a decorator? Or Such a lousy gf? Who don't know how to cheer up my ma ?  Make him happy? Make him feel relieve? I don't know. This word I don't know is also a trouble n cause of fighting. Sigh... 

What I knew was new thing started in my life about month ago. May I should be moving on too, without dragging much.. Pity....... 

Decision making

Just found out an idiot make a stupid decision. Well, is up to him to decide what is best for him to do. Maybe his decision won't cause him in great pain or relief. I do feel sad....
No choice for it because I have to respect each one decision. Good or bad, let time to decide. Weirdo, strange, uncomfortable, speechless, is all up to him.

May God continue to bless him and to see him thru everything he do. Hoping the best also for him.
With all love and regards, i have to agree if he voice out a decision.

work

here am back again...
Missing long time didn't write much...
Busy Life with work and no jobs sometimes...
Hanging Around, lazying, enjoying busy_ness, and sorts.

Love to have the moment of work, not too stress but just stress of  $$$

HAHA.....

Well, is LIFE! Still have to Praise God that I'm still around to walk His ways. :)

Glory to be with Him!

Taylor

Ah!!! Taylor swift is here. Performing live in KL. Well, just another singer here. Famous songs, lyrics and beats. Cool. 

Back to normal

New month new challenge. It has already begin... Work just come back to normal after a month of sustaining in site, looking after works done. Things are tough sometimes to manage the whole site. busy busy busy when got work... Run here n there. Then now back to small part of carpentry.
I enjoy carpentry work more, although construction and renovation is more fun. Looking and learn more n more things. I'm grateful to know and learn more.

Thank God for it.

Worst part

Dear Love Letter,

I'm willing to enter into relationship/marriage if you are able to maintain or sustaining a job with a fixed income. It really can't denied that u still have a part in me. No matter how, you are the one whom I can feel love from. The love that you pour is unusual love. The spirit you have for me is lively. Nothing can be compared. It seems so colorful when I feel in touch with you. No doubt there was a time, I felt boring and annoyed by you. Things you did seems make me unhappy at a time. Things has been change for so many years. Nodding means yes to loving your endless companion but Sickening heart of seeing you like a loser or someone who don't try to work out hard for life. The only thing I couldn't see is the security in and of the future. I couldn't bear to see my life while and after committed end up in such despair without working out to be and having a better future  with someone I love. All I wanted is not from mouth, but things from hand. The outcome of the work of our hand to strive for better future to have a better earning. I want my family to be insecure in-terms of money and enough for living, enjoy and relaxation. Isn't that the most simplest things in woman life? Wish to be love with the one who love them the most and to give them the best and fullness in life?

I wish for a better ending to strive together. Proving it to me first would be the best options because I was once disappointing by you. The first disappoint that you made was your first promise. I did let you tried for many times to prove to me, but ended up, I can't take and bear it. Is so painful. Is so memorable memoirs.




I really couldn't understand yours.

Thanks for your abundant care and love.

Love sincerely,
tamz18

Malaysia

Argh... Time flies... Coming to mid month ady. I still havent got any business in... All are delaying, and dont know when gonna do.
No sales... Cham la...

Sigh...

Not more Cham than MH 370 been missing for 5 days since Saturday. Not so sure where it has been. Landing safe? In the sea? Under the ocean? Taken by UFO? Got hijacked?

And now bomoh is up to play a dumb story in Malaysia. All laugh and being shared with many LIKE for Malaysia Citizen acted so childish and stupid to believe in such fools. And only that, also found out MH 307 flew to Malacca Straits after so many days. Sigh...

Don't know Malaysia Government creating stories to make a ease heart for the passengers family or just want to make Malaysia a famous place...

Really No eyes to see... Dumb and stupid...

But continue to pray for the victims, passengers, pilot, co-pilot, stewards, and the illegal passports users.

What a big joke..

1 March 2014

Here comes a new month of the year, Year of March. Some will say 1314, some believes it as long lasting relationship when getting married on this date. 

Superstitious? Just for the Chinese phrase? Em... Oh yea, for most people of course hoping to be with someone important on this date. 

I'm going through it all alone on Saturday. Nth special will be happen on this date. Oh well, good to have this date appear in my life once. Been through many important dates withing these few years and remembering me of many troubles and pain. As I go through these, hope I could learn to be more independent and stronger. 

All da best to those who married today. May God bless your marriage.

Don't know what to say

It is so true that one person is sad, the comforter should remain silence. Their comfort is there when they are around to support the grief one. 

So much that we talk everyday, but we didn't know how to put our mouth in silence. We don't calm down and to listen. For God teaches us in the book of Job, his friends were there but 'don't know what to say'.

Thank God for such reminding message.

Lord, give me sensitivity
To people in their grief and pain,
To weep with them and show Your love
In ways mere words cannot attain.
—Sper

When someone’s grieving—listen, don’t lecture.

Wait even though time waits for no man.

Thank u God for asking me to wait and be patience ways for He knows my time has not yet come. Praise and glory be with Him. No matter how old, how impatient, suffering. as long as God is there, I'll wait.

Not so in haste, my heart!
Have faith in God, and wait;
Although He seems to linger long,
He never comes too late.
—Torrey

God always performs what He promises.

Confession

Dear God, 

Please forgive me for what I have done. To the extent of not knowing own sins. Righteous of man makes us proud and stand firm on our decisions. Lord have mercy on your nations, your people, and your sons and daughters. Bear with us out sinful thought, desire, lustful, wicked, negative, evil, temptation and etc. For we are sinners, yet to know what is right and wrong, correct, justice all were put aside because of illusion from the devil. 

Believe in us once more, to make us reconcile and repent once more. For You are the Mercy ones, the one who loves us since beginning. Look into our hearts and Change our heart, soul, mind and spirit. Renew us each day to be a better person every brand new day just as your love toward us will never ending. 

Look into my heart for what I have surrender and promised. Make me a useful tool to serve your kingdom. Protect me as your lil children. 

What privilege is mine to come
Before the Father’s throne,
To speak to Him in earnest prayer,
Make all my wishes known.
—Sherbert

Amen

Chinese New year ended with Chap Goh Mei and Valentine's day together on 14th February 2014. Well, this year ang pow money is getting bigger but the money value is getting small. Wonder is that why people tend to give more so could rise up the value of Malaysia ringgit. Nothing special happen on CNY. What most out stunning is I got 10 days of leave while everyone starts to work on the third or fourth day of CNY, which make me sick and boring with it. But I used it with spending time with friends and family. Better than ntg because is the only time I could sit more at home or with friends whole day. A great day spend is when going up to Genting just to have a walk with Uncle Lau after went back to office for gathering on the sixth  day of CNY. Cool place to visit after so many years didn't visit. Cooling and refreshing.

Now is time to strive for sales target. Work load again... But I'm happy with current job. =) Praise God for it.

Vanness Wu

Lol... the face. :P
He is married

Ahhh... Time really flies....

Super duper busy everyday. Hoping to relax a bit at work, not going to face stupid idiot client. Hope to receive and meet more good client.. Work really pile up... Drive here n there like crazy mad...

zzzz... AHhhhhh.HHHH,a,,,,g,hg,,,

My first thanksgiving on 2014

My first day happen by looking for coffee in the midnight before countdown to 2014. After searching so long for coffee place, and I ended up in mcCafe, mcD branch. Here I'm enjoying my night of coffee through 2014. It was splendor to spend such lil mayb half price for Starbucks, and getting nearly the same outcome. Not bad to hang out there.

Then, first breakfast was having dim sum. A good morning breakfast that suits Chinese. Then just hang out... While waiting greatest dinner I have in 2014. 

Y I say so? Is because I had dinner in Uncle Joe's place. It was awesome because he cook again. And according to him was his first time cooking Turkey. Yummsss... It was delicious. Glad for such awesome and great dinner on the new year. It also was a gratitude from him for my video making for LCM. Glad that I could offer help to him. It is me who owe them so much. Part of my pa n ma who took good care of me when I needed. 

And the thanks giving of first time of the year is so lovely, and great. All thanks to God who give me such close relationship with them.