U have grown to be mature, strong, steady and even know your direction of life. You made me proud because is part of me that made you to be like this. I'm truly give thanks for what you become. Is my honor to say that you are good and secure now. If only I met you now, things would be different, very much different no it be good nor bad. Yup. Life needs to move on. We can't stagnant there forever, if not, we will get stuck in a place forever. No matter how it moves on, you are still my memories. No doubt I will still think about you, but it brings no meaning. Happy is in the heart. You are the 2nd things I hardly let go.

Wanna know my first ? If you know me well, you will know it. Here's the clue. Thing that I let go in 10 years ago which is most precious to God. =)

Cheers! 


P/S: And I do ask my self, how come you still read my blog? em....
Thanks for letting me know that you read my message.

Bondage

I read about a book called "Set Free on Bondage."

I think I am in with my previous relationship that lasted for 4 years.
It was really a sign, that I had to let go. But I still thinking back of good old memories. Till now, sometimes I still compare that Ed is better than Nic in certain ways of how they treating me.
This situation causes me felt like in bondage with Ed. It seems like I couldnt let go, and stir by the evil temptation to think about it. Moreover his birthday is tomorrow. More likely I will text him.

Praying hardly I could be set free from this bondage.

Troubles comes,
Troubles goes,
Love come easily,
But is more painful to set free.

Christmas 2013

I couldnt feel much joy and significant that it is the Lord birth. But I do remind myself that God gave away His son for us on this special day with deliverance from Mary. But it begins with EVE, working day like normal. Wanting to get half day, but I failed and till normal off hour. Reached to his place for dinner, and he wouldnt spend time with me to go through Christmas.
Then no choice but I have to go home and do my wrapping as I could not have enough time to do it because of Pastor Joe's presentation of 60th Anniversary of LCMS.

It leave me no choice but to do last minute wrapping. And it took me the whole night for me to go through with my gifts. Big and small, all came with candle and a deco. Not a easy task to do the wrapping. But I manage to finish on time before I go to church. And Start my morning service late because I was dily-dely my time and goes off at 8.30am. Reached at church and got morning call to go and buy Vicks for Pastor Joe.

And here i miss the morning worship. But worship is not about songs but about the whole process of servicing God. Thank for it, I made it for Bible reading time. Then words, baptism and end of service.

After service, while waiting for worship team to meeting, many presents were given and received. Then in time of waiting, Im walking around and suddenly hand grip loosen and there goes my Iphone. At last it got broken the screen. Sigh... My first biggest Christmas gift this year. Was thinking, should I change glass or should I just change phone. Sigh..........

Then after their meeting, we went for lunch in Wongkok, Scott Garden. The place was good, cheap and less people. Good for whole cell to be there. While waiting, I'm thank God as well because he joined in to lunch together. Although less chat, I could see he is damn boring and always pressing the phone. I asked him to leave as waiting for Melissa to end Chinese Service. It was a long service they had. And I'm kinda sleepy..

It took me a sleepy drive home as I couldnt bear and take the sleepiness out of my head. Kept on hitting myself to awake. Nearly close my eyes and put the wheels off road. =P
And Thank God that I reached home safe enough and sleep soundly right after. Hehe.....
There ends my day sleeping in Christmas and light dinner at home.

28th

For this year birthday was quite a normal one.


Glad that I had my secondary friends who accompany me on the 17th for dinner and it helds in Maiu, Sri Petaling. Seeing them was my greatest joy. I couldn't ask more for it. It was Tuesday on that day of which I couldnt remember that there was pasar malam. It just took me half an hour to look for car park. But still thank God, I found a good and nice parking place. First joy begins.

Second joy was, everyone was there happily eating. Though the food gone bad taste but still what kepts us happy was the conversation btwn 6 of us.

Third joy was, gift exchange from everyone as Christmas present. I got BodyShop shampoo, lotion and a scrub. But sadly, I gave away simple yet cheap stuff, not as expensive as them. :( And it ends the night happily and joyful.

While on 18th, It is my birthday. Just like normal, going to work, relaxing. Got a great lunch from my boss. He didnt know it is my birthday for I suggested to him to have a great lunch with me. And it was joined by whole company. 6 of us, Uncle Lau, May, Gavin, Summer, Veronica and me. Wow.. Going for a lunch cost Rm150 and I think is cheap by eating all out nice food! yummy! Thank God as well for this wonderful boss that I have.

After work, just heading church to park my car waiting for him to pick me up to Kuchai to dinner with him. Eating in restaurant@foodcourt. As he said was nice. He brought me to seafood. Kind of expensive crab  which cost RM72 per kg. Haha... Super expensive but having 2 crabs. And ordered a Lala.. All total up cost RM92. We also order a noodle, water and all total around RM100++. Too much to eat.. But I still prefer Klang. Hehe.. my preference.

Had a long night sitting down there to eat. Glad that he ate with me because he is kind of high cholesterol but still trying to cheer me up by eating it with me. =) Thank God for another great meal and time spending together. After that, it just end with fetching me back to church to get my car and head home..

Days of 18th 2013 ended soon when reaching home.


Be glad be joy,
For the Lord has prepared His ways.

Counting to 28th

yea... count down begins in 7 days. I'm no longer 27th. Correct? haha... dont care... missing my teenage time. and im 30th soon. :P
10 years are just that quick. I still remember the first time i went to college. It was my 17th. N now im coming to it. Just a glimpse. Everything changes so fast. Been through so many things, up and down. And now my direction is a bit clear of what I should be doing. Hopefully God prepare this good route for me to go through. It like a dream that i been spending it with happy going without cares or burdens.
This is me. Happy go lucky. But I need to set my mission next year. The day onwards from 2014 for the things I need to achieve. Will write down soon.

Hope for the best.
Strive for the best.
Looking up to the best.
Surely, success is there waiting for me.

Love,
Tamie

imstillthinkingbackofpast.ofwhichitreallyhitsmybrainthathowmuchibeenthrough.2009-2013.countingthedaysareslowbuttheyearsarejustcomingwithoutknowing.andidomissitsometimes.unforgettable.

werecaledbabyduringthosetime.timeischanging......