Drizzling

it felt so long that i did not walk under the rain and i did today. it was because i forgotten to put my umbrella in my bad. it was so nice.

Start to think back during primary school where, everyday, walk home under the rain. playing in the rain, and even flood in the school to cause us all to bare foot to keep our school clean and dry. So enjoying thinking back of the past.

But not much memories of under the rain during secondary school days. Though there is, but the capture is not that strong.

But i do cherish what God has made with rains. With it, we survive, we do not get burn by hot sun and hot temperature. So nice!!!

So bless…

mistake

days after days… argument still goes on.

but it seems quiet down ady for today..

really wonder what is in his mind.

everyday wan to fight for the same old past things of relationship, how good it is as last time to be as in couple, accusing me that i have alot of admirers, chat with guys non stop. love to hang out with my friends compare to him. and ETCS….

 

but kinda happy that he slowly slowed down to not to contact me. sometimes really wanted to sack him off in my life. because of his annoying and irritating attitude. Sigh… but i’m not this kinda people. I really want to stay pure as friend with him.

hopefully he will understand this sooner in his life. learn up the mistake. and yes, people who can’t cope with problems, they can’t learn from it.

many things had happen this week.

1) after BOIC, Edmund said, he will change the way he talk, act towards me. He thought I'm like his angel. He said to listen to my words.

2) A happy going life went on but it strike start on Friday. Argument happen. Because we have different thoughts in life, as his ideal job career, argument with boss and sorts.

3) Kinda happy because I went up to Genting for the first time of this year (I guess) with him. It was quite tired but i still went on outing with him because i felt different from him though i don’t want to let him have so much of hopes.

4) Why am i still forgiving him for all he done? WHY am i still so silly stupidGirl!!!!

 

I did return back the phone to Douglas, but I’m still not sure, he want me to repay a new one for him cause of the scratch mark i made.. If he don’t, I will buy Iphone and camera. If he wants I will just buy back a phone for him. and no camera. Sigh……

BOIC Training

well, had my Boic first camp training on 17 and 18 April. It held in FRIM.

It was exciting as it serve as Adventure Ministy (MAPs).

It was quite an early morning wake up. Getting ready, packing and etc preparing to go. Reached the place at 8.30am morning. Saturday morning! How I wish I could sleep more longer. But i couldn’t because of paid RM100 for it. Regret if I’m not going for it. Upon reaching sure argument with Edmund again la. Cause he is those kind who don’t like outing and never experience once about it. But i don’t care bout it. I just think of how to enjoy myself throughout the camp.

As usual, I’m the first one to arrive. Hehe.. Being proud of myself. Then came Samuel. As time pass, reaching 9am, seeing more and more people around. And we do wait till 9.30am to 10 am. Wow.. But is ok…

Then everyone introduce themselves as we waited at the front gate. Knew of their names Melissa, Joyce, Ameline (hope i spell correctly), Samatha, Bee Lee, Ian, and Lee Yen. Then we head to the place to get our weekend bike to travel in to FRIM and around the FRIM. I had choose my own bike number 5. Well, it follows me… ^.^ Enjoying the ride to our campsite. We been intro and games with ice breaker with each other before lunch. Everyone enjoying the ice break very much and get to know each other much more.

Then after lunch, we had to go for our obstacle race with our bike. Ride it up hill and down hill. Long, narrow and etc…. All using our own leg to cycle thru. It was a hard time where going up the hill. We go through 2 place. 1st is for easy training. 2nd is for real life experience.

Everyone felt the first trip was hard. But when we tried on the second hill, it was more challenging. Even harder. But there is a great treasure waiting for us on top of the hill, that is mini water fall. Is sorts of Spring of Living Water. Because we worked so hard to reach on top. It refresh everyone up there. It is cooling and breezy and even butterflies around makes the surround even more beautiful. It was awesome! and totally God’s creation.

And our hard work up, also makes a good results as we began to cycle down to the hill. :)

But it was good time for all to enjoy and knowing each other ability. helping each another. We went through a session of how to handle questions and answers. As in real training in MAPs. It is efficient. Then we have our solo hour session. It is a time where we reflect back what God has told us in our life. As in a life prayer, faith , favor with God. Or sort of chit chat time personally in the middle of the jungle alone with no lights and phones. What we can bring is our own heart and a mosquitoes coil. Is kinda creepy outside alone. With so many unfamiliar insects, animals and even leeches! Raindrop so scary… The water dripping. Movement in the bushes. But prayer keeps my 20 minutes goes faster. Was sitting down at the pogon. Not daring to move around. Thought of how good if I were in KL enjoying the lights. :P

Not forgetting to mention sweaty all day long till at night only took bath. Haha…

Then lights off.

Till exiting part in the early morning. Some ice break again to keep us awake. Took breakfast, then Tree Climbing! yea….!! Just a semi static rope tied with a Bight and a Bowline. That is how we climb up with an additional Prussic on our legs to step on. But too bad. Dr Yap, forgotten and replace the karabiners bag. So we took another Figure of 8 Bight and a single Prussic tied to our waistline. It was successfully made. And easy climb. :P 

Everything we played took a short time as they expected us to end late or taking even longer time to do it. We were all proud of ourselves. YEA!

Then we move on to the last that is Treasure Hunting for map. I’m excellent because I spotted mostly for the flags. Hoho..

Everything end at 3 something. Then we have a discussion again for topic. It took us nearly 2 hours for it. From then on, we move separately from our camp. Had everyone email from the previous mail but not phone number la. seems so oldies.. haha… I really enjoy at the end of it. Though i been bite by leech in the jungle before tree climb. But it worth, at least i had my first bite. ^.^

am getting more n more tired la from wat he gave me…

keep on pressuring me. asking me to treat him fair, wanting the best of me as in i need to do everything based on his feelings his is the first priority…

n i just can say sorry for i really cant do it.

If this still comes after this day of 3 months, I’m surrendering myself to God, and ask God to take care of him. real tired.

 

n hopefully God will recover and find those who have earthquakes again. Happening in China, 6.9. Have mercy on us please…