Worst part

Dear Love Letter,

I'm willing to enter into relationship/marriage if you are able to maintain or sustaining a job with a fixed income. It really can't denied that u still have a part in me. No matter how, you are the one whom I can feel love from. The love that you pour is unusual love. The spirit you have for me is lively. Nothing can be compared. It seems so colorful when I feel in touch with you. No doubt there was a time, I felt boring and annoyed by you. Things you did seems make me unhappy at a time. Things has been change for so many years. Nodding means yes to loving your endless companion but Sickening heart of seeing you like a loser or someone who don't try to work out hard for life. The only thing I couldn't see is the security in and of the future. I couldn't bear to see my life while and after committed end up in such despair without working out to be and having a better future  with someone I love. All I wanted is not from mouth, but things from hand. The outcome of the work of our hand to strive for better future to have a better earning. I want my family to be insecure in-terms of money and enough for living, enjoy and relaxation. Isn't that the most simplest things in woman life? Wish to be love with the one who love them the most and to give them the best and fullness in life?

I wish for a better ending to strive together. Proving it to me first would be the best options because I was once disappointing by you. The first disappoint that you made was your first promise. I did let you tried for many times to prove to me, but ended up, I can't take and bear it. Is so painful. Is so memorable memoirs.




I really couldn't understand yours.

Thanks for your abundant care and love.

Love sincerely,
tamz18

Scream

i don't know why, but I just hope to scream..!!
Scream out with my lungs!
I want to go holiday so much!
The miss the Diving under the sea!
I miss the bliss of the beach!
Apart of that, I just want to  scream out with my voice, full throttle out with the air in my lungs!!
I feel so "san fu".
Don't know why...

Fall/slip on floor

Well, long time didn't post anything here. Guess everything has been the same as usual. Life with Edmund is just part of argument and good @ peace.

This time is a big thing that happen to impact my life and my body. I slip felt and had a knock on my head. Is considering quite serious because I felt I had 2 blackout without seconds. I still manage to realize what is happening to me. But the main cause of fall, it might be bags laying around the floor by some kids. It also part of my hurries to cause me to fall. The moment I felt, I couldn't even stand at once. But still consider lucky because I still could sit down and to think that I couldn't faint. It will just give a shock to kids.

The moment of it, I really could feel the pain on my head. The knock really impact me. Went for immediate doctor check up. Doctor said, if I didn't feel dizzy or vomit I don't need to go for CT scan.
So far, it didn't happen to me till 630pm which is now since this morning. I scared, I'm just try to avoid it to happen even the dizziness. Anyway, I know a lot of people has been helping and caring for me. It is really glad that I realize there are bunch of people still willing to care for me no matter what. Is really glad to know. May God will continue to heal and look after after me. Everything is by faith. God is my strength yet my provider.