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Old things got rusty, dusty, and spoilt. Is the same as love. Old love seems to fade away when there is any good take carer, or misuse. When ever is being dump, ignored, and placed aside, is like not being appreciated. This is the feeling that I have. Trying much to save my self from beyond this is happening, but I know I can't. Eventually new things comes in life again when old was being abandoned. It was not I who abandon the old, it is I'm the old thing. I don't really feel I'm being appreciated anymore. How could this be? Am I such like a decorator? Or Such a lousy gf? Who don't know how to cheer up my ma ?  Make him happy? Make him feel relieve? I don't know. This word I don't know is also a trouble n cause of fighting. Sigh... 

What I knew was new thing started in my life about month ago. May I should be moving on too, without dragging much.. Pity....... 

work

here am back again...
Missing long time didn't write much...
Busy Life with work and no jobs sometimes...
Hanging Around, lazying, enjoying busy_ness, and sorts.

Love to have the moment of work, not too stress but just stress of  $$$

HAHA.....

Well, is LIFE! Still have to Praise God that I'm still around to walk His ways. :)

Glory to be with Him!

1 March 2014

Here comes a new month of the year, Year of March. Some will say 1314, some believes it as long lasting relationship when getting married on this date. 

Superstitious? Just for the Chinese phrase? Em... Oh yea, for most people of course hoping to be with someone important on this date. 

I'm going through it all alone on Saturday. Nth special will be happen on this date. Oh well, good to have this date appear in my life once. Been through many important dates withing these few years and remembering me of many troubles and pain. As I go through these, hope I could learn to be more independent and stronger. 

All da best to those who married today. May God bless your marriage.

U have grown to be mature, strong, steady and even know your direction of life. You made me proud because is part of me that made you to be like this. I'm truly give thanks for what you become. Is my honor to say that you are good and secure now. If only I met you now, things would be different, very much different no it be good nor bad. Yup. Life needs to move on. We can't stagnant there forever, if not, we will get stuck in a place forever. No matter how it moves on, you are still my memories. No doubt I will still think about you, but it brings no meaning. Happy is in the heart. You are the 2nd things I hardly let go.

Wanna know my first ? If you know me well, you will know it. Here's the clue. Thing that I let go in 10 years ago which is most precious to God. =)

Cheers! 


P/S: And I do ask my self, how come you still read my blog? em....
Thanks for letting me know that you read my message.

Christmas 2013

I couldnt feel much joy and significant that it is the Lord birth. But I do remind myself that God gave away His son for us on this special day with deliverance from Mary. But it begins with EVE, working day like normal. Wanting to get half day, but I failed and till normal off hour. Reached to his place for dinner, and he wouldnt spend time with me to go through Christmas.
Then no choice but I have to go home and do my wrapping as I could not have enough time to do it because of Pastor Joe's presentation of 60th Anniversary of LCMS.

It leave me no choice but to do last minute wrapping. And it took me the whole night for me to go through with my gifts. Big and small, all came with candle and a deco. Not a easy task to do the wrapping. But I manage to finish on time before I go to church. And Start my morning service late because I was dily-dely my time and goes off at 8.30am. Reached at church and got morning call to go and buy Vicks for Pastor Joe.

And here i miss the morning worship. But worship is not about songs but about the whole process of servicing God. Thank for it, I made it for Bible reading time. Then words, baptism and end of service.

After service, while waiting for worship team to meeting, many presents were given and received. Then in time of waiting, Im walking around and suddenly hand grip loosen and there goes my Iphone. At last it got broken the screen. Sigh... My first biggest Christmas gift this year. Was thinking, should I change glass or should I just change phone. Sigh..........

Then after their meeting, we went for lunch in Wongkok, Scott Garden. The place was good, cheap and less people. Good for whole cell to be there. While waiting, I'm thank God as well because he joined in to lunch together. Although less chat, I could see he is damn boring and always pressing the phone. I asked him to leave as waiting for Melissa to end Chinese Service. It was a long service they had. And I'm kinda sleepy..

It took me a sleepy drive home as I couldnt bear and take the sleepiness out of my head. Kept on hitting myself to awake. Nearly close my eyes and put the wheels off road. =P
And Thank God that I reached home safe enough and sleep soundly right after. Hehe.....
There ends my day sleeping in Christmas and light dinner at home.

Counting to 28th

yea... count down begins in 7 days. I'm no longer 27th. Correct? haha... dont care... missing my teenage time. and im 30th soon. :P
10 years are just that quick. I still remember the first time i went to college. It was my 17th. N now im coming to it. Just a glimpse. Everything changes so fast. Been through so many things, up and down. And now my direction is a bit clear of what I should be doing. Hopefully God prepare this good route for me to go through. It like a dream that i been spending it with happy going without cares or burdens.
This is me. Happy go lucky. But I need to set my mission next year. The day onwards from 2014 for the things I need to achieve. Will write down soon.

Hope for the best.
Strive for the best.
Looking up to the best.
Surely, success is there waiting for me.

Love,
Tamie

Basic trip to Malacca

A basic trip does provide good things. It all happen from bad to good. 

Yup, undeniable that it not that smooth from beginning, but everything went smoothly even when we are back. 

The life has gone to another phrase. 

Well, everything will be ended by Monday freak. 

Yea, jam... Exhausting... Tired.... Mentally ill.... And so much more and everyone says Monday's Blue.

It still gave me joy and love because everyday is a brand new day to starts fresh!! Seize the day. YOLO.! 

Storms

Quite silly reading back my own blog. It's like a storm. Yea because ups and downs, I complain to myself here.
Is good for me to do relaxation and release I guess.. :)

Anywhere I can go now??Because I have ended my practical in KAAK. Wow.. End up smoothly and very well done. Hehe...
Hoping to get high marks. Scores high.. Haha.. But in my cert. still written 2 words only. Is PASS or FAIL only.
Silly me.. >.<

Thinking. Pondering. Is all about heart feeling..

is now the month of May. And I’m kinda dilemma with things on my mind. As 2 years coming in 2 months time. I wonder how would I be, how would I act, how I contact him, all these has been running in my mind. Is unsolved. But the a year has passed since last year of this date 9/5/2010, I tried and requested him to be back with me. I guess, is also 2 years before, the same thing happen.

 

Is ok… I’m happy with what I have now just lack of some love. God said, be patience and wait. And the day will be arriving soon. How much changes he has been and how much he realized he was wrong in his past doing. I really wonder… Y God want me to proposed this 2 years of patience, would it because of LOVE? What happen if it is not going to happen to be a pleasant way? What am I gonna do. Smile and leave? Knowing and accepting new  guy?

I really ponder….

New Job, New Changes

A job from Midvalley, Heguru has called me up for interview last week. And they promised to hire me as a part timer as assistant teacher. And I got the offer.

The only thing which I’m still worried was my Sabbath day and my weekend to serve God in Girls’ Brigade ministry and MAPs. This is my utmost worried of serving as it takes me half of my day. And suddenly, it just blocked because of this job. Maybe I should have a try on working on this job. If it is a good offer, I will continue to work on this and there goes bye to Ministry in Kindergarten. But of course, I don’t just look at the salary only. I do also look forward to serve God. That is my most priority.

Thinking badly, but is good also as I been asking around, which church could accommodate my time to be in Sunday Service. Gladly, Joshua, is the first person whom I thought of as a christian friend. He suggested his church which he goes also the same time. Is a Young Working Adult Service. Praise God that it start at 5pm. I still can go home and change. God has been good to me.

Heguru did call me again today, to notify me to come work on next Wednesday which is on 16 March. Glad I’m hired just in time.

Everything is in His hand.

Hair cut day

Out of sudden, I just wanna cut my hair short. Out of no big surprise to me, out of curiosity, or things that syok-en me.

I just wanna cut my hair.

When I go to Charren, the expectation was, having Beatrice to do my hair. But Ivy was free, so I get her to do it for me. Yea… She is a good hairstylist, I also do mean to all da people in there. I’m very satisfying with my hair cut. And also with that, I also straighten up my hair, Rebond it. RM160 for a short hair plus hair treatment and etc.

Totally, I paid RM220 for 60 extra for hair’s vitamin and oil.

I do really happy with my hair right now. I never felt so easy with short hair, of which, long time I didn’t try to make it short. Most of all, thanks to Tiffany’s hair that she used to have last time that encourage me to cut such a hairdo.

 

Luv it so much!!

2011 good year?

This is a good year for couple-ing? LOL.. Indeed, I am glad to see everyone found a new relationship.

Yeah… Church already got 3.

Friends, at least 4.

And myself? Being single still the best for the moment. I did not found someone who I cast upon, someone whom I could count on. Neither I am involved in any open relationship. My mind still remain the same as 2 years plus. Well well.. time really flies. Here I am this year 26. I guess is time for me to look for more financial income than being into relationship. Because I know that God will provide me in every single details like love, secure, companion ship and etc. He is my source of strength now that I could rely on.

Sounds so Holy? What do u expect? Just because U don’t know me personally with heart. Indeed, no one could replace God. He is always my FIRST priority since last 5 years.

Love of God

This is much like the mother of a newborn baby. She has already sacrificed much of her life and personal ambitions to the life of the child before it is ever born, but after the birth the sacrifice continues. Each time the baby cries, the mother is disturbed from much needed sleep. Hours are spent giving often, regular feedings. Messes are cleaned up. Clothes, diapers, sheets and so forth are in the washing machine continually. She hovers over the little baby and gives it a protected environment. Sometimes she is so tired she thinks she will collapse. She loves the baby with a love that she cannot describe in words. But do you know something? That newborn baby does not love her! That’s right….

That baby doesn’t love anybody really…. unless it would be itself. But she begins to work on the problem right away. She coddles, hugs, kisses, rocks, and coos over the baby. She gives it constant attention. And then one day, she is greatly rewarded when she hears it say, “Mommy, I love you.” My friends…. that little short sentence make all the tiring effort seem worthwhile.

GB PD Trip

it was indeed a joy to catch up with some girls during GB Camp. Well, I love the beach. God’s creations is so awesome, wonderful and is praise worthy. Really Indescribable.

It just make me think back to go dive under the sea. So great…

Love the water and sky. It gave me a cool feeling but too bad, I didn’t play in the water, because i’m worried of the dirtiness of the water. But I’m still satisfy, going out with Wah-wah, and Sook Kuan, my 2 ex AJK Board in Sri Petaling school. Their heart is still here in GB. Glad for such a children of God.

 

And the most miracle and small tiny things happen in my life was seeing all the girls coming back to GB, as like I been before. It was sweet memories of GB time….

Flies

As time pass by,

I still got 19 days to my birthday,

26 days to Christmas,

29 days to his birthday,

and 32 days to New Year.

Time flies… All my dear dream of having gadget that I needed, has been complete. I got those in hands, yet, I need to survive for another 2 years to been through and settle everything because of Iphone. But I am happy with what I got. May is a blessing or maybe I just try my luck.

Haven’t thought of a birthday wish for this year, as last year, Wish completing soon, and it goes well. This year aim for better ones?? Not sure though. Maybe something easier to fulfill just because I’m getting old? :D

Life changes

again… there are good n bad.. things never end in life.

I decided to resign from Aunt Christine place because I struggle much starting from this year. She seems changed to another person whom I don’t and can’t communicate. It is hard for me to do things….. Sometimes, I felt frusted. I felt so ill when seeing her deciding what she wants when she said earlier on. It was total opposite.

Is sorts of choking to me.

And I made up my mind to take the path which I want to take, by taking a course. Might be hard for me taking a tour guide course, because I didn’t have a good knowledge in speaking and even communicating. Well… Have to try. Never try never know.

Praise God that 2 of my prayer works immediately. Friends call me out and him calling.

Sad things does happen to fill up better ones. Y would it be? Feel more powerful? Conquering? or ???? Not sure…

But of course I wish and want for good thing to happen. It does make my eyes swollen. Painful isn’t it? Still have to work early tomorrow yet, still want to torture my self not to sleep but to complete task. Sigh…

 

What a life again.

Life

Day comes early.

Noon comes early.

Even rain does rain everywhere..

All about life. Living with a happy heart ;)

My new Gadget Tx-5

woophs…!!!

I do remember i wrote this last year November, that was my wish list!!!!

 

1) A Digital Camera

Had been eye on Sony newest camera that is TX-1. Price is RM 1499.

For more info, check it in www.sonystyle.com.my

Of course colour that im choosing is not pink.  :P  Just newly bought my Tx-5, water proof camera, today!!! I’m freaking happy bout it. Woohoo…!!!! XD

2) A Handphone

i been using my hp for the past 4-5years? Quite a good memorable hp which comes from my friend. A friend that helps a lot. The model is Nokia 3120. Wow.. Old right? Pathetic to me cause i don't plan to buy new one in past. But now, i wanna change to a new hp with camera, coloured, good features. Eg: Iphone. Haha... So big dream when after so many years. But besides Ipone, others still can. Wanting to get Nokia Classic 6700 with cheap and good features. But most important is handy. I need 2 hp....!!!!

3)  A Watch

Fossil? Swatch? Or etc?? I don't mind. As long as it suits me. Nooka in year end.

4) A Holiday

Till the year end, is always days where I'm really free. Hoping to find a place which I can relax. Going alone is a good idea, but going with a friend as a companion is much more better.   Completed, by when out to Cherating, Kuantan with Kit Yeng, Wei Yee, Wen Xi, Alwyn and etc friends during July.

5) A Jeans

Levi’s?

6) A Sweater

From Topshop or Pull N Bear?

Hehe... Girls favourites. Got blessing from friend. Giordano brand. I’m still happy bout it though is not brand new.

7) A Car

Last but not least, I know I won't get it. Until a day where God can really see me through in it. But I'm happy with what i have now that is transport free driving around with mum's car, taking public transport if i have to.

 

Haha… At least my wish is half completed. And my most important aim in this year, i got on June. That is scuba license. Hehe….

Is all by God grace!!!

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had a great weekday. trying to go beyond what i didn’t do for long. trying to stay late every night until 2am or 3am just to enjoy with my darling, Kit Yeng. It was great with her. To know her more and more, though I known her for long. Every thing seems in a fairy land.

and i realize… the lovebirds trying to do something to me again. ARGH!!

Every time when im single, it sure comes back. But i will try to avoid it cause I knew it is Satan way to try to tempt me in. And to make me feel lost and etc… I will be more careful by going out with my darling if bees are around. ^^

God has called me to become a steward of His creation.

And I’m so bless with what has and will be return.

Happiness and joy is the main purpose, that kept me on.