Dilemma of changing job

I'm actually in a dilemma in changing job. Basically because of money terms. Not even 2k. Secondly, I wanna explore more. Thirdly, I don't think I wanna end my youth with such Taska life that makes me so angry everyday because indiscipline children. They are all spoilt child. Aunt Esther won't even scold the children much and let them be themselves. It makes me hard to train them up to be independent and being a good children. All they do is just lazying around and talk too much.
Not only the children, maybe because my Unsatisfying working in such un-clean environment. When ever the children pee, or boom, we as teacher have to clean up. There are no cleaner to do it. We have to do all. As well as in the toilet, there are no water tap around in the toilet. Pathetic...
The most reason ridiculous reason is, there are not enough toys for the children to enhance their Holistic Development. Why? Because since I went to (KAAK) Basic Child Care Course, I felt very much different. The center that I visited, is very much appropriate!
Omgosh!!
Since I study in this KAAK, I realize, this is not a comfort place for me to work in. Not worth!
Stingy is another reason from me to u. Lolx.. Is true.. :p

And if I really stop Aunt Esther here, I will definitely stop Aunt Christine here as well. No reason for me to stay when no words can talk, the face that I sees, no longer a happy face because the things she sees is only the IPad and IPhone. These are the only thing she could smiles at..

Pathetic me again...

Nooka watch

Seeing Nooka selling in dealmates reminding me that the watch u bought for me. Is classic white and square watch. I think I'm going to buy those cheap ones in dealmates. :) at least I will tend to forget that u bought me once.

Buying 2 watches cost RM 800+
I guess ok la.. Not expensive if I really think it is

Really Missing You

Actually I'm glad to see back your old blogs which contains me and you in it.
Can't mentioned more, because the dates end 2009. Now is 2012. Sigh... So many years passed.
If we are in good relationship, I guess everything will end up easily, by trusting each other, letting each other do things by their own and etc.
Is good to see back old pictures.

And seeing latest H5 Storm watch, reminded me of YOU. Thought of buying a RM1k watch for you as a present. But I guess you won't appreciate it as well. Really hope that nice watch will be at your hand and my hand too.. :)

 Really Missing You

Still Loving You

so many month has passed. And now i'm single and all alone for 2 month ++.
I'm kinda wondering what God want me to do with my life... Being so boring and so pitiful to be all alone for now. Not having much friend with me now.
Can't really look for friends to go trip with me, holidays and even other planning.
Kinda sick of my life actually.
That is why I always think, what if he is still here with me. He would and will definitely go here and there with me without any complaint!
But too bad, things had happen till the baddest situation. And it only requires me to take my real own action to ignored him.
Well, sad to say, same old things had been happening over and over again. Mentioning back my old stuff, making me like unbelievable. Having crush on my exs.... NAH!!! It won't happen.
Even Jinn said he miss me and he want to get back with me. With what ever reason it is, (sex, love or true love) I don't really care. I just told him straight away that you are my ex. Something happen between us, it can't change means cannot change. We can't be back together.
(Unless something change, maybe your attitude)

Haha... nuisance me... Impossible.
But to me, you are always possible. Because I really like and love you. Till the bottom of my heart. I hope and wish you could see this blog. What I have wrote.
But I guess again, you won't even bother to look at this. I guess you forgotten about the blogs I wrote before.
The old memories between you and me always remain.

Although I knew is impossible for us to get back together due to certain circumstances, but I still knew that I love you. Is better to be apart but still loving you. I did not hate you before. Even how bad u treated me, you always the guy there.
Mayb I will stay single:? Who knows? Maybe God has His own way to deal and manage my LIFE.
No idea.......

Edmund moving back to family

At last, he had made his decision to move back to his house. For the first time my room are so empty. I had my freedom to roll here n there, sleep or not sleep, watch tv, dramas and whatever I can be. Yea.. It sounds normal and boring at certain time because no one I could see or hear a sound. But is still the proper way to being in a relationship.

I was hoping it could build and strengthen our relationship as well. Because what I'm doin now is for our future family. Learn how to know importance of family in our family first will know the priority. Then will only get to know future family. Is good for him and his family.
Glad to hear he is willing. I do know, is hard for him to travel. But I need to.
Mayb I shud add more gentleness in it to encourage him. :) hehe...
May Go continue to bless and see this relationship will long last for it. ^.^
Living what I am and what I do now.